Latest by Josh Middleton
Suffering in Silence: Why the HIV Community Can No Longer Ignore Mental Health -- A Blog Entry by Josh Middleton
Our mind is a powerful tool that we need to keep in shape, explains Josh Middleton, who lives with depression and HIV. "There is nothing wrong with saying, 'I live with a mental health disorder and I need help,'" he urges.
"We came from diverse areas of the globe," Middleton explains, "with a special opportunity to expand our roles as online advocates and arm ourselves with an arsenal of tools to better reach the communities we aim to impact."
Heterosexual Identity Crisis: The Untold Story of Shame Among HIV-Positive Straight Men -- A Blog Entry by Josh Middleton
"Caught between a rock and a hard place, many heterosexuals, especially straight men, feel alienated -- from both the heterosexual community and the broader HIV-positive community," says Middleton of Pozitive Hope.
"The truth of the matter is MSM are 44 times more likely to contract HIV than someone who is straight," Middleton writes. "With people like myself being on the 'bottom of the totem pole,' I wonder, do stories like mine matter?"
"While social media has been buzzing with the news, and the nation mourns [Nancy Reagan's] passing, a different sentiment is present throughout our HIV community," Middleton writes. "For many who are positive, this marks a step forward."
"Disclosing one's HIV status is a very personal decision, especially to one's parents," Middleton writes. "But disclosing my status to my parents turned out to be one of the best things I ever did."
"I stopped believing in the saying, 'everything happens for a reason,' because the truth is, sometimes there isn't always an explanation," Middleton says after he and his partner experienced a pregnancy loss by miscarriage.
Even though Josh and his HIV-negative girlfriend were both educated and had made the conscious decision to use treatment as prevention (TaSP), when a pregnancy came into the equation, the "what if" always lingered.
"There was a brief second of silence followed by the loudest scream I had ever heard in my life. You would have thought I told her the world was ending and I was the one delivering the catastrophic blow," Josh writes.
"My story serves as a reminder that this virus does not discriminate and neither should we. Regardless of how we reached this point in our lives we are all brothers and sisters in this battle," Josh writes.