actually, i was reading a article on AIDS a few years bac in high school.i was so curious abt it that i started reading so much on it.like everyone else , i started imagining symptoms. After 2 months of sleepless nights, i got tested and it was negative. but the thing is, this whole 2 months of fear wrecked me completely.its been 4 yrs since this whole thing happened, but every second i live ,there is this constant fear of getting infected. i have become so skeptical. if i go to hospital for medical injection, i start sweating. inspite of the nurse reassuring that its a new needle/syringe, i jus find it really hard to trust them, unless they open the pack right infront of me.i would jus imagine every worst possible ways i could get infected.i just cant help thinking that way.i go to the parlour to get white heads removed, i ask them if we had sterlised the remover, he would say yes and still i would convince myself i might be at risk.few weeks back i went to the dentist. i had cracked lips. i had to get my braces tightened.the doc was using latex gloves. wen he touched my lips, i was getting worried if he was using a new gloves or if he didnt , infection might pass on to me thro cracked lips, i get scared wen one of my friends poke me with a compass,i am scared of using using friend's bathroom, his toileterries, his towel,infact their toothpaste... the exact thing that runs in my mind is: " wat if he is infected, wat if he masturbated and didnt wash his hands properly, wat if it contaminated the tooth paste" i know its crazy. but its out of control .its like i have to watch myself every second to make sure i am safe...even though ther is no risk at all.i sometimes feel i need an appointment with a pschycatrist. i cant live my life in fear. i fear the thought of blood, sex and needles everything related to it.. can u tell me what i should do...
You're "getting irriated"??? What's that?
Can I advise you what you should do? Sure. I suggest you do exactly what you yourself suggested: see a psychiatrist. You accurately identified your problem and what should be done about it when you wrote: ". . . I know it's crazy, but it's out of control . . . I sometimes feel I need an appointment with a psychiatrist . . . I can't live my life in fear." BINGO! There's your answer. Your fears are completely unwarranted and totally irrational. Don't delay. Get the psychiatric help you need.