Oh my goodness, how long has it been since doing a regular journal? I cannot believe how time goes by so fast at times. What is new -- I have finally gotten my degree. I got it in April; finished classes in February. My youngest daughter is now almost 5 months old and doing really great. My other three children are doing excellent; my oldest will be starting kindergarten for the fall school year. The family is doing wonderful and I am blessed to have them in my life.
It has been about four weeks since I gave birth to my beautiful angel. Her name is Matasha and she is just a cutie baby girl. I wanted to give as much information as possible on what happened before delivery, during delivery, and after.
Hello! I am very sorry that I have not written as frequently as I wanted to. I am 37 weeks into my pregnancy, as the title says, and the baby will be here on January 29. That is exactly four days away for me.
I am excited, nervous and anxious -- a little bit of everything. When she arrives all of those feelings will go away.
This has been quite a journey again with my fourth child. Only reason I say that is there has been so much going on with me and my family. I am finally moved and settled into our new home. I am still going to school, but this is my very last course and I will be done!!! I am very excited; this degree has been a long time coming, and I was not going to stop until I finished. My other three children are doing great and growing big, and my husband remains supportive and strong for me.
It has been a little bit since I wrote, but I have a lot to tell. My mysterious absence is due to a couple things. The first is I am moving and have been going back and forth between two states. The transition is a process within itself, so that is one of the things. I still have packing left to do, moving trucks, cleaners and carpet cleaners coming.
The title pretty much says it all. I am expecting my fourth child which is indeed a blessing. Of course, having gone through this three times previously I should know what to expect, right? Wrong!
It is one thing to have to wake up every day and deal with being HIV+. It is quite another issue to have to deal with a hater. Let me just say the playing fields are not even. Why in the world am I talking about haters? Is this blog not supposed to be about positivity? This is still true and this blog will be just that positive.
At times I find myself reminiscing about the past. Trying to go back in my mind and ask myself, Could I have done anything different? Did I really let this happen? Why, was I so gullible and naIve to make such a stupid mistake! Not sure if anyone else struggles with that, but I do on occasions.
Sometimes secrets can be light-hearted and carefree. Then there are those secrets that are detrimental and not good to keep. It would seem like the right thing to do is be honest about whatever the secret entails whether bad or good. That is not often times what individuals do to one another. Sometimes secrets are kept from another to hurt that person(s). For example, if I am hurt then I will just hurt you. Then that becomes one very vicious and mean cycle. One secret, which is HIV/AIDS, should not keep anyone in the dark.
Can you believe 2011 is coming to a close? For me this year has really been surprising and unique. There have also been some glitches here and there. Overall the year shaped up to be really good. What do I vision for the year of 2012?