A Poem by Justin
My name is Justin and I found out I was positive in 1991. My boyfriend told me he tested negative, and in this very unusual case, his fear of getting his test results brought out a multiple personality that had developed in him when he was raped at age 13 by an uncle (long story). That other personality took him over and got the results that painful day. A couple of years later he was diagnosed with multiple personality disorder, after a complete breakdown. He came to me in tears and asked for my forgiveness because he didn't know he was positive.
Some of you might think he was lying to me. But both his doctors and I know he was telling the truth. The most important thing is that people learn it is up to you to take responsibility to be safe. And yes, it is very hard and scary to stop what you're doing and tell someone you're positive. Yes, it truly ruins the moment, but trying to tell them later, if they end up being someone special in your life, is even harder and you can lose it all.
By the way, I forgave him. Now we know just what does and doesn't spread the disease. But it still isn't easy to deal with the lonely feelings and fear of rejection that comes with being positive. I just simply make one statement. I INSIST ON SAFE SEX. It says so much and only expresses that you care.
Be Safe, Not Sorry
Some time ago, twenty years of late,
He said his test had come out OK,
I have to admit, that now I can see,
But I've learned to be strong and not to fear,
I hope that sharing this simple poem,
This article was provided by 2011 Poetry Month at TheBody.com.
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