I can empathize with this. In middle school I tried to commit suicide because of pressures at school. I was called the "F word" a lot. I didn't want to tell anyone because I didn't know what would happen to me. I was so scared to go to school sometimes I faked sick just not to go. In middle school I was attacked several times. I was pushed into lockers, punched, slapped, stabbed with a pencil, and someone actually threw a coin at my head at full force that actually made an indentation in my head. I lashed out at my parents at that time and I went from being an A/B student to a C average student. I knew I was different and the fact that people called me names because of my sexuality stayed with me for a long time.
But now I have a chance to do something, to help others that are going through the very same abuse from their bullies as I did. Let's help those who cannot help themselves.
Mr. Justin B. Smith
"If I didn't define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people's fantasies for me and eaten alive." ..... Audre Lorde
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Justin B. Terry-Smith, M.P.H., may be one of the most public African Americans living with HIV: He has his own website, and he's even on YouTube. He is a noted HIV and gay civil rights activist and the creator of "Justin's HIV Journal," a popular blog in which he shares his trials and tribulations of living with HIV. A U.S. Air Force veteran, Justin resides in Laurel, Maryland, with his husband, Dr. Philip Terry-Smith, and their son, Lundyn. Presently, Justin is working toward earning his doctorate in public health. He welcomes your questions.
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