August 4, 2010
For the past several weeks there has been a question lingering in my mind. It's been rattling off and on, on and off. To me, it doesn't matter if I ever get an answer to this question. It also doesn't matter if I get the correct answer. I just need to hear other people's inputs for the sake of my mind.
The question I impose on you, the readers, is: Is there actually something, or someone greater out there? Is there a gigantic, magical entity pulling the strings on EVERYTHING we, human beings, do and say and meet and act out on? Before you answer this question for yourself, I ask that you listen to what conclusion I have come up with. This answer is solely MY own answer for myself. I am simply taking the time to share it with all of you. So, here it goes.
I believe in a Higher Power. I believe that His name is God. I believe that He is the Grand, Divine Creator of all things large and small. But, I will go further to state that He doesn't give one single iota in how we, His creation, live our lives. For me, God is simply a clerk. Every day, He gets up and turns the world on. He creates certain entities and then places them wherever He sees fit. That's it. This is as far as He will ever go. He watches EVERYTHING we do. He takes no action to intervene, no matter what situation and circumstances we fall into. At the end of the day, He makes sure that the machine continues to run on its own power while He rests ad prepares for the next day. He is the clerk that makes sure everything is running according to design. Nothing more, nothing less.
You may be asking: How can you say this about God? Again, this is solely MY opinion. But from what I have seen, what issues I have been in, and what I have seen happen to others around me in my short lifetime, this is my answer. Now, I'm not saying that He doesn't care a thing about us. He does. He does so much, that He will not interfere with the gift He gave us: free will.
I tell myself this whenever I overhear someone say: Well, it's God's fault for what happened. Or: It's His Will that has come upon us. Wrong answer. You will never hear me say anything of that nature. God didn't force the Holocaust on the Jews during WWII. He didn't throw down His gauntlet at Louisiana during Hurricane Katrina. And, most important, He did not create HIV/AIDS to punish homosexuals.
People and nature are the prime culprits for everything that happens to other people. People created hate and racism and bigotry. People kill other people. People use cruel words and unspeakable violence on other people because of being gay, or Black, or Latino, or Jewish, or whatever that bigot group is into. People hurt people. God has absolutely no input in any of these things.
So, you can then ask: Well then, why does God permit it to happen?
God is not your babysitter. He is not a watchdog. He is not an entity with an agenda. He could care less about what the hell we are doing to ourselves down here. He allows this because He gave us free will. He is sitting back and watching all of this unfold. Now, unfortunately some people use their free will in bad taste.
Now, unfortunately some people use their free will in bad taste. These "human beings" go around and spread hate and condone violent acts on other regular human beings. They walk around with picket signs that read GOD CREATED AIDS TO KILL FAGS DEAD. They march in protests against homosexual marriages. They practice intolerance and bigotry. They write literature and spread this hate throughout all parts of the globe. It is a pathetic, immoral, and wrong road to take, but some decide to take it. I am on the other side of that fence.
I walk with my brothers and sisters who advocate love and hope. I choose to accept people for who they are and appreciate what they do. I, like so many others, march for peace and prosperity. I fight to live to see the day when I can get married to my spouse, Devin, WHEREVER and WHATEVER state or country I please. I choose to walk with these people. These beautiful human beings that advocate acceptance, tolerance, and love.
These are the good people. They care for one another. They look out for each other's best interests. They stand up to those who would dare to destroy them with hate and bigotry. They are the peacemakers of this fine world. They make the world beautiful through what they stand for, and, in some cases, have died for. I am so proud and appreciative of being able to live on this side. So, that is my message for this entry. People do things to other people. God has no equations in the formula. Does He love us though?
OF COURSE He loves all of us. He has to sit this one out until the end though. He is like the dad that only wants the best for his kids but must not interfere with their lives because it is THEIR lives. But, know that He will be there for us in the end. Even for those who preach hate, He will be there for you too. He loves all of us, as equals. And, that IS what we all are. Equal.
I hope and pray that some of you out there that have lived your lives on "that side" of the fence take a closer look and join our side. Embrace the theme of equality, solidarity, friendship, and love. Do good things to other people. You may not see any rewards or actions from God now. But, when it's all said and done, you will experience and hopefully walk in His light.