Voice of ONE
September 8, 2011
I want to go home. The California heat and my mommy are calling. I'm not homesick, I'm heart sick. After the loss of my father the only thing that seems to matter to me is family and pre-existing friends. I don't have the energy nor the desire to go out and meet new people or couples to hang out with. I don't know what to say to them. I feel like I live currently in a BAD Lifetime movie.
Money: The Biggest Challenge to Sticking With Meds
September 1, 2011
I cut my finger on a can and freaked out. I would not touch my son. We were home alone in the kitchen making lunch; he was crying and I was bleeding. Staring at my finger, as the blood slowly trickled down, it felt so weird to look the enemy in the face for the first time since being diagnosed.
Happy 1st Birthday Myles! A Crazy Year in Review
July 15, 2011
Toilet paper is scattered across the wood floor like newly fallen snow. In the corner Myles and Nash, our new 4-month-old puppy, play tug o war with the last remaining connected squares. Marley the cat watches curiously; apparently he never knew the joy of toilet paper. Keanen my stay-home-daddy husband is on the couch looking like a zombie.
I Don't Have Time to Be Sick
May 12, 2011
Job that pays the bills (most of the time) -- check. Medication and 12-month refill for my prescriptions -- check. New medical insurance through work -- check. Positive support system via friends, family & fans -- check. Having free time to go see a new doctor and get my lab work done -- NO check. I simply don't have TIME to be sick.
March 29, 2011
I am sad. I have had a shitty year but I'm strong and will not let it overpower my life. When it comes down to it, sometimes life just SUCKS. From about two weeks after I got married my poor husband and I have been on this roller coaster of emotional heartbreak called LIFE.
A Killer Sex Drive?
February 18, 2011
We had sex; not a big deal. We're married. We're supposed to have sex. It wasn't the first time and it won't be the last time.
Paying It Forward
January 20, 2011
I got an email from BABES (my Seattle HIV Female Support Group) in October asking if I would speak on World AIDS Day. In the financial havoc which is our government for some reason they are looking to cut funding for everything, anywhere. One of the items on the chopping block is HIV testing for pregnant women; seems I am a poster child for this being a BAD thing. Without hesitation I grabbed the reins. Excited, nervous, and proud. Had I not been tested by my doctor when I was 3 months pregnant, my son would have HIV. I would not be on meds, and my viral load and CD4 count would be more scary than they still are.
Like Sand Through the Hourglass, Women's Health Falls
November 15, 2010
"Women haven't really gotten the message that they're at risk," said Shannon L. Hader, M.D., M.P.H., director of HAHSTA, the D.C. health department's HIV/AIDS administration, in an interview on CNN. "So we are very, very concerned with making sure that women in the District realize that HIV, in fact, is a woman's disease too." I couldn't agree more.
Oh My God, We Made a Person
October 14, 2010
I never babysat when I was younger; my youngest sibling is only four years younger than I am. To be honest I was horrified to be a parent. I had no idea what to do with a baby. I went to NO parent-to-be classes. I was too mentally enveloped in the recent tragic loss of my father, and still coming to terms with being HIV positive, on top of being recently evicted. A baby was hard to think about and even fathom.
We Do Have a Baby!
August 16, 2010
Myles Grady Robertson was born July 15, 2010 -- 7 pounds 4 ounces. I got thrush in the hospital and am STILL sick and trying to get used to my new sleep schedule. My mother was in town for a week from California and so I have been running around like a crazy person, still sick, schlepping the baby everywhere. So far his blood work is back and he's HIV negative!!!
Voice of ONE
Brooke was diagnosed HIV positive in January 2010 -- two months married and 11 weeks pregnant with her first baby -- and has already begun to educate others about HIV. She lives in Seattle, and her poetry has been featured on TheBody.com. Her son was born on July 15, 2010.
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