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Larry Bryant

January 2006

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African-American Identity and HIV

When did you first realize that you were African American?

Honestly, I don't think it was until I was in college. I grew up in such a diverse environment, being an Air Force brat and living on base -- it was just the Rainbow Coalition, especially in Hawaii. Going to Norfolk State University was really my first experience being in an all-black environment, which was interesting, because that was the first place where I started getting that "You talk funny. You talk white!" thing. So it wasn't until then that I really felt like, "Yes, I'm black", but maybe I wasn't black enough in some people's eyes. Then off-campus, in some communities, I was certainly black enough. And even now I get unique reactions from people -- especially having played football, they expect me to act a certain way and when I don't, it puts them off.

To what extent have you experienced racism in your life? How have you learned to deal with it?

I know it's there. In my senior year at D.C.'s T. C. Williams High School, which is predominantly white, a handful of kids were selected to represent the school at different law firms and businesses across the city. And I was sent way out with this other guy to Chantilly, a suburb. I don't remember what the place was or what we were supposed to be doing because they didn't give us any tasks, just a little office space and some time. So we got comfortable, but I pretty much got run out of there -- they accused me of doing things I didn't do, like flirting with the secretary, who was this older lady there. The other guy and I were always together -- he happened to be white -- but everything that happened, I did, you know. And at the time, it confused the hell out of me because I knew I wasn't doing these things. But I tried to justify it, like, "Well, maybe I did say or do something." It wasn't until years later that I figured out what had happened.

As an athlete, it didn't really matter -- no one really cared if you were black, white, Chinese, whatever, as long as you could play. We never really cared -- on the field we were all the same. What got in the way of that was when we took off our uniforms and went home to all our respective neighborhoods. But in school, we were either lucky or na?ve to that whole process.

What do you think is the biggest challenge facing African Americans today in terms of HIV?

One is to get people to talk to each other. When it comes to communication, if it has to do with rap or Jerry Springer, you can't keep people quiet. But getting people to talk to each other in relationships, whether they are family, social, personal, sexual, whatever -- just communicating with whom you're with. In the African- American community, that's multilayered because you have the religious and church community. You have the different generations where the newer generation is "hip-hop" and has its own language and got angry at Bill Cosby, and all that. And, of course, you have his generation, where they have their own standoffish quality. So just getting everyone to talk to each other instead of at each other.

Another is that you can't talk about HIV in the African-American community without speaking about the disparities that exist in employment, education, and health care. I mean, we can't blame everything on "The Man" -- we have to be more self-sufficient and proactive when it comes to saving ourselves.

What HIV risk factors are of special concern to African Americans?

A lot of those are the ones I just said, the disparities in employment, education, health care -- all those play a part not just in HIV infection, but incarceration rates, pregnancy rates. And they're mostly along socioeconomic, not racial, lines. HIV has come, and at some point, it'll go, but the next epidemic will come through and the same people will be the ones affected. Look at Hurricane Katrina and the disaster in the Gulf Coast -- that affected the same group of people. We have to close that gap.

Are there any specific aspects of African-American culture or identity that give you strength as you learn to live with HIV?

It's understanding that we, as black Americans, have culture and family. I was reading, I think in the Washington Post, about how black people in Atlanta are running toward events that are planned around family reunions. Whereas most people during the holidays are trying to run away from their families, black people are planning these reunions. Now obviously that involves good and bad when you're talking about family, but the connections are there, and they're very powerful.

What is the biggest change you'd like to see in HIV treatment, prevention or education care for African-Americans?

I work in a field where, as an advocate for people who are positive and marginalized, right now it's all about getting the Ryan White CARE Act [a five-year federal grant for HIV services] fully reauthorized and allowing everyone access to quality health care. But the thing I would like to see personally is for those marginalized communities to become self-advocates, to develop the confidence and the vocabulary to demand these things for themselves. A lot of things can be presented on a silver platter, but there are people who, if jobs came and knocked on their door, they still wouldn't answer.

I was talking with this lady today, and we were sitting side-by-side on Thursday addressing Congress on reauthorizing Ryan White and addressing the Medicaid cuts, and in the middle of that we're giving our own personal testimonies, talking about who we are and why these things are important to us. I'm a positive black man and she's a positive black woman. And she keeps deferring to me because I went to college and I present myself a certain way and I work on Capitol Hill -- and I'm trying to convince her that we're in the same place! I'm just as nervous and have the same butterflies she has, and there is no professor or Ph.D. or class that can give her the education and experience that she has developed on her own over the years. So having people understand that it is just lack of confidence, or that there is no quick result. With this big push toward voter advocacy in recent years, where the elections went the other way, a lot of people are giving up and saying, "I'm not voting anymore." You're supposed to try even harder after that! We have power and value, and we need to exercise it and share it.

Do you think the Bush administration is doing enough for the black epidemic?

No, I don't think the Bush administration is doing nearly enough for anything in communities of color -- and HIV is just one thing that needs to be addressed. But to blame Bush for all this would be incorrect. A lot of this stuff did not begin just four or eight years ago -- though there have been presidents and administrations in the past that were more relevant.

I think we all need to do more to address the people that need the most assistance, regardless of their color. We tend just to take for a given that "There's always going to be that permanent underclass, so don't worry about it." For me, there's no place that better illustrates that than right here in D.C., where there's these gleaming marble buildings like the White House and then steps away there's a homeless village. What picture is that?

What are some of the main myths about HIV that you hear in your community?

I've heard some really interesting ones over the years. That condoms are purposely made to be faulty. That HIV is a gay disease -- I think it's accurate to say that HIV is a male-driven disease, but it's not a gay disease. I heard one little girl, like 10 years old, talking about how "You know when someone has HIV when their hair is really fine, almost straight." I have an idea where that came from, because sometimes when you take medications it affects your metabolism, and maybe that can cause changes. She said it so matter-of-factly that you know she heard it somewhere. Sometimes the myths can be confused with the facts -- misperceptions become myths, and then those just become givens because we just give up on wanting to know the truth.

What are your fears and hopes for the next generation of African Americans as they face the risks of HIV?

I have both a fear and a hope: That the current generation, who are growing up in a world where HIV has always existed, will get through the whole idea of stigma to the point where HIV is no longer taboo to even talk about. It's just a regular conversation, people regularly get tested -- like growing up when there's always been the iPod. But that hope becomes a fear because the "Oh, it's not going to kill me, I just need to take the medications and I'll be OK" attitude then doesn't remind people to protect themselves. People are still dying of AIDS, and there's a lot of things that people who sell the medications don't tell you about side effects, and a lot of people who are positive won't go anywhere near the meds because it's easier for them to live with the effects of AIDS than with the side effects of the medications.

HIV, Health Care and Treatment

What has been your experience with HIV treatment?


Never been on medications, and that may have to do with the fact that for 18 of the 20 years I've been positive, I never went to the doctor. I never went to get my viral load count or my T-cell count. I didn't want to know. And it was weird because working as a peer educator and health educator, I would tell people, "Go get your tests, make sure you know your levels, it's better to know that not to know" -- and of course I'm not doing it. But one day I decided to do that, about a year and a half ago, and my levels are all OK. I have a very low viral load, high T-cell count. Of course, the doctor was surprised that after 18 years everything was pretty manageable, and he was like, "If it ain't broke, don't fix it."

I often wonder what my decision process will be if and when I get to the point where I'm recommended to be on meds. I have a good job, and I understand the avenues to access, and there are medications I know I'm going to be able to get. But there are a lot of people out there who have needed medication for a long time, and cannot get it -- and are refused medication, for whatever reason. I would feel almost guilty to access medications.

How did you choose your doctor?

This was back in Houston. I lived on the periphery of the AIDS community -- I had a regular job, and a regular life, and I would volunteer in different things related to HIV. And it got to the point where I wanted to flip that -- and one of the first steps was "OK, I want to go get my tests done." And it was pretty much just going to the HIV clinic where most people went. Fortunately, the clinic was the Donald Watkins Clinic in Houston, where Dr. Joseph Gathe is. He's this world-renowned HIV pioneer in medicine, and I just lucked into that!

I've been in D.C. since November, and I haven't chosen a doctor because I haven't been still long enough. But with my new job and new insurance -- I mean, the list of doctors are a little more experienced and have a history working with employees of Housing Works, so it's just a matter of me sitting down and trying to figure out who's going to be my doctor for life. But I feel a lot more comfortable doing that now than I would have five years ago.

Do you have a particular health regimen that helps you stay well?

When I was in high school, I was pretty athletic -- and a lot more health-conscious than I am now. It's not like I have any special diet or I'm a health-food junkie. So anything that's kept me where I am is just part of me. The thing I try to keep in mind is not to do anything that could hurt me, anything detrimental to my health. I drink occasionally, I don't smoke, my diet is pretty full, but at the same time I'm not bingeing or damaging myself. I think it's best to live in moderation.

Do you participate in an AIDS service organization? In what way?

In Houston I was a little involved with everything. Aside from being a member of the Ryan White Planning Council, I was on the African-American Task Force and different community and peer groups. I was just trying to saturate myself, not just at the agency level but at the community level. Here, back home in D.C., I'm still reacquainting myself with the area. But I will soon be doing the equivalent as far as involvement goes.

Having gone to high school here, I've already spoken at my old high school -- which was weird, because I played football on the state championship team, so my picture is still up in the halls. It was so weird to be coming back and not talking about football! I snuck it in there, but ... I've spoken in front of crowds and at schools in Texas, Georgia, lots of different places, but to come home and do it was very, very interesting.

Have these organizations been helpful in improving your health?

I don't look at it necessarily as being helpful for me -- I always look at it with a sense of "How can I help someone else?" And I feel like the more I can educate myself about what's going on, the more I'm able to share with someone -- whether it's personally or socially or access to services or whatever. Being an advocate for as many people as I can helps me, because that's what drives and motivates me.

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Reader Comments:

Comment by: Deark Bailey (Kansas City MO) Wed., Mar. 18, 2015 at 3:24 pm UTC
As a Peer Educator myself i understand and feel where you are coming from and i thank you for all you do for our people. i know before i found out about my status i didnt't know anyting about HIV and up until about 2yrs later after me finding out i started to get the education i need to know about what i was living with. When the doctor told me my status the gave me a binder with names and numbers of doctors that take care of people in my state as it was put by the 1st doctor. the next doctor was my very first ID doctor told me that i need to take these pills or I won't live long Mind you i still didnt really understand what i was being told. I have been on that same med for 6yrs dealing through all the side effects which i feel like are still with me for life even tho i am no longer taking that med its sad how these doctors just give you this stuff and don't inform you about what will come with it. I knew i wanted to get in this field so that i can.... help inform my people because where i came from this was only talked about in movies and still to this day its sad how we can't even talk about this without people getting scared we need to educat our people we really do
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Comment by: l. a la foucade (West hyattsville MD) Thu., May. 17, 2012 at 7:26 pm UTC
Larry I just want to say, what you are doing is nothing short but amazing.
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Comment by: Melanie (Saginaw,MI) Mon., Nov. 14, 2011 at 5:11 pm UTC
Im researching a paper for class and your article has truly inspired me. My friend told me 3 months ago that he was HIV positive. I want to truly be there for him.I was wondering if you do any inspirational teachings. Staying in saginaw I believe that its not enough sexual awareness.. Well I keep in contact..Again you truly are a inspiration GOD BLESS YOU!!!!
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Comment by: James (Iowa) Tue., Jun. 14, 2011 at 12:12 am UTC
I praise God for your article. It has help me in more ways than one. I would like to get in touch with you to seek more information with what I'm dealing with. I'll be in touch. Stay strong. Your testimony is such blessing. God bless.
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Comment by: Uwakwe (Jos, Nigeria) Sun., Jun. 5, 2011 at 9:31 am UTC
For many of us living in this part of the world(Nigeria)it is very unfortunate that we do not want face the facts of HIV. That is to say that, to face the reality is very difficult. I appreciate ur courage Larry, keep on. Know that ur impact IS POSITIVE in combating HIV
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Comment by: Debb (Malaysia.) Thu., Nov. 11, 2010 at 11:33 pm UTC
you're a living saga . i just found out that my 18 yrs nephew diagnose with HIV. i'll print out your story for him. thank you.
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Comment by: diane (washington,dc) Wed., Nov. 10, 2010 at 2:56 pm UTC
I Feel that in dc we do not have good housing for people livin with Hiv and Aids and we do not have all the thing that we need to get by and i think housing and HUD do not help so what can we do or ho can we talk to to help us get throw this thing that we have to dill with,i do not like the fact of having to go to the hopital all the time because of bing sick and being away for my kids and not being home with them.but god help me throw it all
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Comment by: Kyana (New York, NY) Tue., Nov. 9, 2010 at 9:23 am UTC
hey Larry!
I am a high school student from New York. I attend Forsyth Satellite Academy. We are dedicating a day to AIDS awareness on December 1st. Its will be a honor if you can take time out of your schedule to advocate young adults who are unaware about the HIV/AIDS era.
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Comment by: SMALL (South Africa) Wed., Jun. 2, 2010 at 7:15 am UTC
Larry, you are very inspiring.
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Comment by: Ninja (Philippines) Wed., Feb. 24, 2010 at 8:53 pm UTC

I like what you said about tasting food more, breathing the air more... You appreciate the simple things in life more.

To me you're even than those who do not have HIV. A virus is but a condition. This condition did not destroy your person. It just mad it better. Thanks for inspiring us. Stay well and inspire more
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Comment by: Ed (NY) Tue., Dec. 29, 2009 at 1:57 am UTC
Very inspiring comments. Keep sharing your positive spirit.
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Comment by: Ely Thu., Sep. 3, 2009 at 9:48 am UTC
Larry, I am truly inspired by you. I would like to talk to you more. Go to my blog and leave a comment. I think I can gain more insight from you to blog about. Thanks! Stay encouraged and be blessed.
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Comment by: kristianna (uk) Sat., Jul. 25, 2009 at 11:01 pm UTC
kool, smart, goodlooking guy! u go boy and am single if u're available! fancy u to bits and God bless u.x
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Comment by: Phyl (Washington, DC) Tue., Jul. 21, 2009 at 12:13 pm UTC
Not everyone is going to become or stay famous friends...but seeking vengence of anykind backfires. Mr.Bryant does some VERY important work for others and shows guts to give such a open interview to satisfy other peoples curiosity about the man behind the title/work.Best regards and stay true to your spirit.
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Comment by: Ms.R (Washington) Wed., Apr. 15, 2009 at 8:28 pm UTC
Please stop! Remember what the fight is? Its about and should stay on the fact that many more have HIV and need help! This is not the place to go after someone who has hurt you. Be the bigger person! I have lost so many dear people to HIV-AIDS, my heart still weep's to this day. Larry, stay strong, may GOD keep you near.
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Comment by: False (DC) Tue., Apr. 14, 2009 at 4:00 pm UTC
I know Larry and he is NOT a predator NOR is he lying about his status. Please disregard her rantings.
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Comment by: NotTrue (Washington) Tue., Apr. 14, 2009 at 3:19 pm UTC
This is not true. This woman has going around spreading rumors and stories about Larry. I believe its a case of a woman scorned. Please disregard her comments.
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Comment by: Ms.R (Washington) Mon., Apr. 13, 2009 at 5:00 pm UTC
I would like to know is this true, is Mr. Bryant lieing about his staus? And using his HIV, to prey on women? If so, he has preyed on me also.
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Comment by: Zawa (South Africa ) Tue., Apr. 7, 2009 at 2:34 am UTC
This man is lying about all of this including his staus he is using HIV and his work to prey on women
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Comment by: Felleng (Florida) Fri., Feb. 27, 2009 at 9:17 pm UTC
Larry I complement you for your the work you are doing and being so genuine about your status. All I can say is GOD loves you and we love you all. I just wish more people in my country of LESOTHO can be more open...GOD BLESS YOU LARRY
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Comment by: Berlin Bernardo (Philippines) Fri., Feb. 13, 2009 at 3:46 am UTC
i want to keep in touch with him if possible
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Comment by: Glo (Maryland) Thu., Jan. 29, 2009 at 4:00 am UTC
Hello Larry, I read your story. Very Very inspiring. I'm a African American Female H+ and share alot of your same feelings. I just never expressed them. I admire you being so open and honest.
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Comment by: Debra Howze (Charlotte) Fri., Jan. 2, 2009 at 2:49 pm UTC
You need to call me Larry.
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Comment by: RKE Mon., Aug. 18, 2008 at 11:03 am UTC
Larry Bryant's e-mail address is available just above the comments section. It is:
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Comment by: sarah Sun., Aug. 17, 2008 at 6:18 pm UTC
you are beautiful
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Comment by: victor claros Wed., Aug. 13, 2008 at 3:22 pm UTC
I would like to get in touch with Larry Bryant. Please give him my contact info or let me know how I can do that. Thanks. we are friends but lost contact about a year ago. Victor Claros
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