A Dream From My PocketSpring 1997 AS I'M WALKING through my dreams there are crack pipes, needles, burnt
spoons, people nodding. People looking out windows at things that really
aren't there! Needles are going into arms, dreams are sounding like reality.
Yeah, lets just go on and buy that house tomorrow. Dope and spoons are all
sitting there waiting for someone to start all over again. It's never-ending
even in our dreams, because I know that our rent is due. But baby, you said
you were sick, so we really had no choice. Everyday our lives get more
involved in drugs, and no matter what our intentions are, we hardly ever do
the things we need to. Because the easy thing is to get high and trip, past
reality. Now I'm having another dream: Here, I'm infected when I didn't
really have to be. But I didn't want to listen to what was going on all
around me. Hey after awhile you fool yourself. It doesn't really have
anything to do with me. But, I was so wrong. So when it hit me, hey, I was
mad at my lover. Then after a while I had to admit it to myself. Now, had
she told me, and if all we had was one rig, and no bleach what would I do?
Yeah, you got it, I'd shoot that dope! I now realize that I'm just as much
to blame as she is. I'm passed trying to put all the blame on her. I have
now taken the real test: Which means I put my own self at risk by not
facing my real reality which is: no one is safe from HIV and AIDS, if you
ignore the information that's given to you! So wake up people! This is no
longer a dream.
It doesn't matter whether we shoot dope, snort dope or smoke crack cocaine
or even drink, no one is any better than the other. This does not include
"bud"...
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