Letter From Jonathan

I am in one of those moods where I need to talk to someone and it seems like no one wants to listen, or they don't have the time. I need to get this off my chest. It feels like I am all alone out here. It's like no one I know feels the same way. It's kind of like I am too grown up to talk to my friends about it and no adult wants to talk to me because I am a kid. It just feels like I have nowhere else to go. Everyone says, "You're gonna be great one day. You have so much potential." No one says, "You ARE great." I wish I could call fear "excitement," even though it feels like fear but I am so afraid that I am going to grow up and fail in life and everyone around me will be disappointed. And then again, I'm afraid I'm gonna succeed. I want someone to love me for who I am but I have no idea who I am. Really am. I know who I want people to think I am but I don't think that is really me. I don't know what to do with my life yet. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I don't know where I'm going, but I know I'm on the ramp to somewhere. And I think that before I can figure out all the rest of that stuff I need to find me. I just need someone to listen.

-- Jonathan, age 21

This book excerpt has been provided with the permission of Scott Fried.
Copyright 2006 © Scott Fried.

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