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My First Serodiscordant Relationship

April 28, 2016

Credit: DevilDog Photography

Credit: DevilDog Photography

Not too long ago I started talking to this really awesome guy on the social media app Moovz. If you do not know about this app, it is for the LGBTQ community. I was nervous as hell when he was actually interested in me. We talked back and forth for awhile and I finally decided before we even went on our first date to ask him if he knew about my status. Now, usually in the past when a guy has found out about my HIV status, they typically run in the other direction and I never hear from them again.

Well, to my surprise, he said "yes" and acted if it were not any big deal. I guess I had become so used to guys who were not interested that this kind of took me by surprise. We continued to talk and even went out on a few dates, just dinner and stuff like that. Then on February 8, we decided we were going to finally make it official and take our relationship to the next level. I was as excited as a little school girl.

He did admit that he did not know much when it came to the subject of HIV and had never known anyone living with the virus. I looked at this as a challenge and a way to help teach someone and to pass on some of the knowledge I have gained over the six years I have been living with HIV. So I did have an appointment at the VA coming up with my infectious disease doctor and I decided to bring my now boyfriend with me. I wanted him to be able to ask any questions that he may have, even the ones he did not want to ask me. I really do think it was a good experience for both of us as we both ended up learning quite a bit that day. We talked with my doctor about the use of PrEP and safe sex. What could put him at risk and ways that we could both protect ourselves. At this appointment we both ended up learning a lot, not only about each other, but about us and how we are able to continue in a safe relationship.

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I think one of my biggest fears in dating a guy who is not HIV-positive has always been that I will risk infecting him. While I know the chances are low, it is still something that remains in the back of my mind. I never want to see anyone go through what I have with dealing with HIV and protecting someone I care about is the most important thing to me.

Another thing I have feared is that I will not be able to protect him from the stigma that is associated with dating someone who is HIV positive. Many will look and assume that he must be positive as well and for someone who may not be used to dealing with this type of stigma, it can be hard. In fact it can be enough to scare just about anyone. Here you are in a new relationship and along comes all this extra baggage that you just don't know what to do with. Now, I am not speaking for him but this is just what would be going through my head if I had been in his position.

Well April 8 makes two months and we still have a lot of learning to do, not only learning about ourselves but about us as a couple. We are taking this relationship one day at a time with the desire to make today better than yesterday. I have always told him that the key to a successful relationship is communication and honesty. I want him to be able to come to me with any questions he may have or any concerns and not worry that I will judge him for them or think that he is stupid. I could never judge or think anyone is stupid if they are trying to educate themselves and better themselves.

Now, I am not one to usually talk openly about my relationships but I want to share this with y'all for the simple fact that living with HIV does not mean that you cannot find happiness and that you do not deserve it. I found mine when I was least expecting it, but I was so happy that I decided to take the chance. We all deserve to be happy in our lives and nothing -- including HIV -- should stop us from finding it.

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