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What I DO Have

July 17, 2014

I may not be the best looking, have abs of steel, be 6 feet tall, an awesome haircut, or have a wonderful partner to hold me. In truth, you probably would not even notice me walking down the street. But I do have something in my life that so many are not as fortunate to have. I have peace. Peace with my diagnosis. Peace within my life. Peace about the choices I've made, be they bad or good. Yes, at times my life gets turned upside down and I can get pretty depressed, but with everything, that too passes.

It has taken me a long time to accept and come to terms with my diagnosis, probably longer than most. But when I finally did, I was able to truly start living again. Every day I wake up, I am thankful. Thankful for the fact that I have a loving family, awesome friends, and for the biggest reason of all. Thankful that I was able to wake up healthy and continue on with my life. Each day to me is a blessing, a chance to learn something new and add a new page to my life's story. So when I am feeling down and want to have a pity party for myself, I remember that I am so fortunate to have all these wonderful things in my life. My life is nowhere near perfect, but I believe it is pretty damn good. These are my own words of wisdom. They do not exactly have to go with just the fact that I have HIV, but can be applied to any situation in life when things seem too hard to bear. I don't pretend to know all the answers, but I am grateful that I get the chance to figure some of them out. If you take anything away from reading this, let it be this:

When life has you down, think about all the things you have that you are thankful for. Because even on our worst days, there is still someone out there who is having a harder time than you are. Take a few minutes each day to find peace in your life; even if that peace only lasts for moments, you will come out of it feeling stronger and more alive. After awhile those moments will get longer and longer, and soon you will be able to fully find peace within yourself.

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Brian Ledford

Brian Ledford

This is my story of how I found out I was HIV-positive while still on Active Duty in the United States Marine Corps and how I have tried to put the pieces of my life back together through the good times and the bad. I am currently a full time student working on a degree in Information Security Technology, which seems to be taking forever. I want to help make a difference and erase HIV related Stigma in the South, where due to lack of education people still do not know that much about HIV. If my story reaches out and helps at least one person, then I have made a difference.

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