Negotiating AZT Dosage When It Was the Only Option, and the Problem With ADAP
Part of the Series My First Pill
April 30, 2014
I tested positive two weeks before I was to sit for the California bar exam. I took the test because I was dating someone who was the man of my dreams and he shared his status with me before we had sex. I went to my doctor, one of the HIV specialists at the time, back in 1986. He said I should start AZT [Retrovir, zidovudine] because I had just 236 T cells. He said I needed to start then. But I had friends who started AZT and they had terrible side effects. I listened to my gut and said, "No." Instead, I waited and watched my T cells drift down.
Finally, I got to the point I had to do something. It was 1988 and I wasn't dead yet, but I was symptomatic. I agreed to start AZT, but I told my doctor at half the dosage. We argued, but this is my body. It made me sick, but I could stand it and I could continue to work. I watched more friends on the full dose get sick and die or just get sick. I did all I could to stay healthy, passed on promotions or other job offers, ate right, worked out and learned to laugh at the irony of the situation, any situation and at myself a lot. I stopped AZT in 1989 and started the notorious D drugs (Thanks for neuropathy, medical science! My feet and hands just love you!) and I got active. I am still here, my doctor isn't. He died in 1989.
I would like to add that ADAP is not meeting the needs of all of us. Because my gross income exceeds 400 percent of the rate of poverty, I do not qualify for ADAP assistance. Last month, my copay for Stribild [elvitegravir/cobicistat/FTC/tenofovir] was $836 and this month it is $1,196. I was off meds for 10 months because I couldn't afford paying a copay. I am moving to Palm Springs so I can get help in California where the criteria is adjusted gross income of less than $50,000 a year. I pay a fortune for medical services and copays and live in an independent living facility because of neuropathy and other health issues. I am not rich, I am not poor. I am just screwed.
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