December 29, 2013
I hope all had a very good Christmas and are enjoying some time with family and friends this holiday season. I apologize for being so absent for the past few weeks, but with everything going on I just have not had time to sit down and write or have not felt up to it.
For me the holiday season is always a little depressing, I am not sure why but I always sink into a deep funk this time of year. New Years is always the hardest, I see everyone getting kissed at midnight and year after year after year I am the one standing alone in the middle of a mob of happy couples sharing an intimate embrace. I stand out like the lone leaf on a tree in the dead of winter still holding on tight.
I hold on tight to the hope that one day I will find that special someone who I can finally share a kiss with on New Years, to the hope that there is love somewhere out there for me, and to the belief that just because of HIV I am not destined to be alone forever. I know for a fact I am not the only one who feels like this, especially around the holidays.
Ok enough with the sad shit. I am over it.
With the new year quickly approaching, I have decided that I am going to make 2014 different. I want to get involved with more outreach and try to make a bigger impact in the HIV community, both in reducing the number of new infections and erasing stigmas. I really want to spend some time focusing on my local area. I do not see much work being done in the community here in North Carolina, and especially here in Charlotte, and that is just not acceptable. I would also love to get my site and story out and try to reach as many people as I can. I think it is very important that we all share our stories with the younger generations so that maybe they will not make the same mistakes we have.
I really have some huge ideas and I know I am not going to be able to pull them off alone. As the saying goes "It takes a village to raise a child." Well the HIV community is that "village" and we must all work together to raise/educate the next generation and keep them safe.
With that being said I am going to wrap this us for now. I hope all have a safe and fun New Years. Please be safe, and I don't mean just in the bedroom.