Four years come and gone, and what a hell of a ride it has been.
Today, Feb 23, 2014 marks my four year anniversary of when I was officially diagnosed with HIV. Since then I have had plenty of ups and even more downs, and it has been a slow process but I am finally getting back to feeling more like myself.
Yes, there was a time when I wanted nothing to do with sex. It was right after my HIV diagnosis. I did not feel like even being touched, I truly thought of myself as one of those "untouchables." It has taken some time for me to get that drive back, but boy when I did it came in like flood gates being opened (no pun intended.)
At first, after recieving my diagnosis this idea first started to come to mind. These were those ignorant days when I truly believed that I was going to die any day. As I said, that was my era of ignorance.
As I told all you fine folks yesterday, I had my first ID appointment of the year today. I was a bit nervous about it due to not really knowing any of my lab results since starting Stribild back in late Sept. I was due for an appointment in Dec but the clinic had to reschedule me and today was the first time they could get me in.
2014 is finally here and I can not say that I am sad to see 2013 behind me. This past year has been a roller coaster for me but that is all in the past now. I know that every year people make New Years Resolutions and 99% of the time they fail. This year I decided to make no resolutions. Instead I decided to write down my goals for 2014, but I will get back to them in a sec.
I hope all had a very good Christmas and are enjoying some time with family and friends this holiday season. I apologize for being so absent for the past few weeks, but with everything going on I just have not had time to sit down and write or have not felt up to it.
I have touched on this subject before but I feel passionate about it and I think it is something that really needs to be discussed more in the GLBTQ community. We all talk about erasing the stigmas related to HIV and how people need to be educated on the subject, which I fully support and believe in, and also in the GLBTQ community we talk about wanting equality and to just be treated like the rest of humanity, which I also support and agree with.
I found this site made by a fellow HIV Positive Marine A Positive Tomorrow and it is a really well made site (might have to get him to give me some site building tips). On his site he has a video called "HIV Education in the Military" where he and his partner have some very valid points about the HIV education Military members are receiving and how HIV effects not just the individual but the whole unit. Please take the time to watch.
With tomorrow being Thanksgiving and the start of the holiday season, many of us forget about actually being thankful for what we already have. With everyone rushing around shopping and preparing to spend time with family and friends, we get lost in all the madness and it is easy to forget about the small things that most of us take for granted.
Sinking into a state of depression after first finding out that you are HIV-positive is a very common occurrence. Most of us experienced it in some shape or another and it can be a hard thing to shake off. We all too often forget how to love ourselves and the world seems like a dark, cold, and lonely place where love can never exist again.