New York City; Diagnosed in 1992
When I was told my viral load was undetectable I felt 100 pounds lighter. My greatest challenge was getting to an undetectable status. I had multidrug resistance so getting to undetectable was a milestone.
I was diagnosed in 1992 and it was difficult for me to adhere to my treatment since I was in denial and angry at myself (I should've been more selective of my partner). During one of my doctor visits he found a clinical trial I was able to join for both Isentress (raltegravir) and Intelence (etravirine). I was determined to bring my viral load to undetectable since I have so much to live for; I needed to live for my son, my mom (she was alive at the moment), myself most of all; I have things to do, people to educate. After a 17-year fight, I got the GOOD news: "I'm undetectable!" It makes me feel so alive.
I have a whole new look at life: I'm going to live; I have a fighting chance. Now I can talk to others about the importance of getting to that point -- it gives you hope. I'm always smiling and laughing; life is so different for me now -- I have HOPE.