THAT was another day, I remember with clarity. Waking up and dreading my doctor's appointment, because I knew I was going to get my blood-work results, and because I was about sick and tired of injecting myself. I was tired of Fuzeon (infuvirtide, T-20), I was tired of medication, I was just tired of it all.
I sat down in her office, and she pulled out my chart and looked at the labs, and smiled. I was like ... OK, what is my CD4? And it had been explained to me months before that they were beginning to look at this thing called "the viral load" ... and how that was more important than the CD4 count. She told me what my CD4 count was, which had peaked a bit ... but she was still smiling. And then she said: Guess what Andrena? Your viral load is under 50 copies! She was cheesin'! Grinning from ear to ear! I still didn't understand what that meant, until she stopped grinning long enough to tell me. That it meant that the virus in my body was undetectable
Even though she explained it to me, I still didn't quite get it, until a few days later ... my mind had to process it. It meant that the Fuzeon was working. It meant that I was NOT gonna die (anytime soon). ....
Comment by: Darrell Robinson
(Louisville Kentucky )
Tue., Jan. 24, 2017 at 5:10 pm UTC
I am 67 years of age and a long term survivor of HIV/AIDS 30 years now. The first several years were the worse. The.During the Reagan/Bush administration with the tag of "Gay" on any issue it went to the back burner with the flame turned off. IF it had not been for a Doctor from heaven, Dr. ANNA Haung and President Bill Clinton in 1993 with his AIDS Task Force and getting the FDA on the toad releasing the, then New, Protease Inhibitors and the other Antiretroviral I would be a part of the National AIDS Memorial Quilt as are so many of my friends and loved ones
After a fight with pneumosistis pneumonia, CD4 43 weight 130 and a 6ft frame. My combination therapy kicked in and I was rejuvenated. In 6 months I aS undetectable below 400 then itbwevnt to below 200 then came 50 and now I am undetectable below 20. With the Grace of God 2 GOOD Doctors I have been able to go to just "one" pull a day and have remained my undetectable status for over 18 years. I was the face of HIV/AIDS for Kentucky and an advocate for my Brothers and Sisters in my HIC community
Comment by: Carlos Espinoza
(Los Angeles ca)
Tue., Jan. 17, 2017 at 3:38 am UTC
I'm a 40year old gay Latino.ive been HIV positive for 17 years.when I first found out I was scared and didn't want to accept it.at that time there was alot of people I new dieing of aids.ive only been on two meds this whole time( atripla,and now for the last 5years triumeq)my numbers In the beginning were bad.but now for the last 5years I've been and stayed undetected.
Comment by: Carl
Fri., Jan. 13, 2017 at 8:47 pm UTC
I a sexually assault in 1985 and three years later on my birthday it was confirmed that I was positive . I really thought that my life was over , and during the 1980s most felt that way . I waited to start medications because my numbers were not that low, I did not start taking medication until many years into my condition . I participated in a study at the University of Pennsylvania with a drug called Vertex . I was non detectable in two weeks , however the drug was so strong , so toxic that I was one of two out of 500 people that could tolerate this medication . I later started a new drug and for years I have been not detectable. For those of you that may be newly diagnosed HIV is not a death sentence , and life does not have to stop . I am living a very normal life free of the fear of dying from HIV . Many new drug regimens are on the market and there are plenty of precautions that can be taken to avoid becoming infected . I was only 21 when I was diagnosed and I did not expect to see 25 I am now 52. although I have remained single and I have no children I am grateful to be able to share my message in order to give others hope .
Comment by: Robert Bixby
(San Antonio Texas )
Tue., Jan. 10, 2017 at 7:53 pm UTC
I've been undetectable for over 2 years now. That's the first time since diagnosis of HIV.
I can only speak for myself when I say that it is a great feeling to know I've been compliant. Not for anybody else but for myself.
It is worth it
Comment by: George Mulloy
(Queen Creek, AZ)
Mon., Dec. 19, 2016 at 6:43 pm UTC
I have never participated in "bad habits" such as smoking, alcohol, street drugs, etc. Also, I have always been very conscientious about my diet and I exercise regularly, although minimally. Lastly, I do not miss a dose of my meds. I have been positive since 1997 and have been undetectable almost the entire time since my diagnosis. I say almost the entire time because I took a five-year break from meds (doctor's suggestion) because my T-cells were always well above 700.
Comment by: Eddie
Sun., Dec. 18, 2016 at 7:48 am UTC
In the spring of 1996, I had zero CD4s and been told by the doctor that I wouldn't leave the hospital alive. With the help of HAART, I became undetectable three months later and have remained undetectable ever since. According to Time's Man of the Year, Dr. Ho, I should already be cured. In reality, I've always cared more about the quality of my immune system than numbers. I work actively in ensuring that my natural defense system is primed to battle and defeat any virus attacking or coming my way.
Comment by: Marvin Clinton
(Gary Indiana )
Fri., Dec. 16, 2016 at 10:31 pm UTC
I'm undetected with hiv and I'm on the one a day pill call atripla have been on this pill for three years is there a chance that I might have to change my medication in the coming years or will I be able to stay on this medication because I really like that i only take one pill a day versus taken multiple pills a day
Comment by: David Moore
Sat., Nov. 26, 2016 at 2:27 pm UTC
I became undetectable three months after starting anti viral meds. Within that first year my cd4 was 400 and has grown extremely stronger in the four years I've been on complara. I thought this was the norm, but after reading above I guess not.
I'm confused as to why so many people aren't, is it because of health insurance? This to me would be the only thing that would keep me from taking my meds. However, I am luck, I am retired Military so I have health insurance for the rest of my life.
It's important to get the word out just what keeping your med routine can do for you, I am one example of that.
Comment by: Eric Harter
Fri., Nov. 25, 2016 at 2:21 am UTC
I was diagnosed HIV+ in Jan 2003 while in was in the Air Force Reserve because we had the yearly test done. On drill weekend I was sent to the hospital, my commander asked me if I knew why I was there, I thought I had to get some vaccinations updated. Wrong, he told me in the entry way to the hospital. The bottom of my world dropped out and I had planned on killing myself instead of telling my spouse. I told her about a month later. The highest mu VL has ever been is 28,000 and CD4 was 500 something. The next time it was checked VL was down to 20,000 and CD$ was low 300. I started on Sustiva and Efavirenz. Some how for the first couple of years I was only given 200mg efavirenz per day. Luckily it still worked and I was Undetectable, the when I had my rx refilled on time I received the 600mg per day dose. I thought they had messed up. No the had corrected the dose. When atripla came out I started on that. I have maintained undetectable since being on meds except for two times with a slight blip, one time was 60 something and the other time was 125. the go back to undetectable the next time I am tested. I have gotten to the point that I enjoy going to sleep for the vivid dreams.
Comment by: Antonio
Thu., Nov. 24, 2016 at 9:52 pm UTC
I rememberm being diagnosed in 88 and the night i receive the news which at that time it was giving to you over the phone.she told me i was positive and hung up.it was a Thursday night.the club was free that night with $2 drinks and i went dancing.that was 28 year ago and ive been involved for the cause every since day one.and today I'm undetectable.a recent graduate of Georgia state University as a Peer Navigator.i have a loving and supporting family who's been in my corner since day one
Comment by: Chris
Mon., Nov. 14, 2016 at 10:57 pm UTC
I was diagnosed pos in 1993. AZT was the treatment then and I used it for five yrs with horrible side effects. T Cells droped to 2 and viral load was 6,880,000. Walking into my dr`s office, well more like shuffling into his office I could hear whispers and gasps from others around me. In and out of lengthly hospital stays where each time I was given a lower and lower chance of survival. This went on for a decade. New meds came out and I was told this is it there is nothing left to try. Bingo. It worked. Occasional viral load detection after some oral surgery 2 yrs ago, now non traceable. T Cells up to 1080. Just saying that some things can set up a reoccurrence. This kind of thing happens every couple yrs. I don`t let it get to me because I need to focus on stpoing the virus in it`s tracks.
Comment by: Michael Holder
(Bay City, Michigan)
Sun., Nov. 13, 2016 at 11:24 am UTC
In June of 2000 I was the first to be charged and convicted of failure to inform of HIV!!
I was sentenced to 10/15 yrs by a jury of 11 white women and 1 white man, 5 of the jury's admitted they was racist!I
I spent 8 1/2 years in prison and got out Dec 13, 2008
On April 10, 2010 I was blessed with a beautiful little boy born natural birth, I have been undetectable for over 10 years, been infected over 25 yrs, cd4 count is 1244!!
I am happy, thankful & blessed and ready to share my story and support anyone !!Ive been told many times that I should share my story!! Im finally ready to come out and attempt breaking the stigma and help anyone I can!! ✌🏼️&❤️💯
Comment by: Bennie Johnson
(San Diego California)
Fri., Nov. 11, 2016 at 2:50 am UTC
San Diego California I know you may not understand this but at this point my life who wants to live after you've buried all your friends from a disease that you have I'm one of the last survivors of my age group which is 53 I'm not sure are you brew would want to cure if there was
Comment by: Clarke Epic
Mon., Oct. 24, 2016 at 6:53 pm UTC
It's a stressful moment when your waiting for your lab work to come back so you can see where your at with the virus. For me it's always a stressful moment. I have switched medications 3 times since being diagnosed in 2012. So yes it's been a stressful journey. But I have always been determined to be healthy. I have only had one scare when I saw my viral load jump from undetectable to less than 200 copies. The best advice I can possibly give is to take one day at a time and have a strict time slot for your meds.
Comment by: Billy Joe
(San Antonio Texas )
Sun., Oct. 23, 2016 at 6:11 am UTC
I've been HIV since 1999 and I've been blessed that I have
Been undectectable for at least 10 yrs or so.... and doing excellent.
As I said I've been blessed!!!!!
Comment by: Anonymous
Sun., Oct. 23, 2016 at 3:14 am UTC
I have been living with HIV FOR 19years now and have been undetectable for about 10 years now. I attribute this to adherence to my antiviral meds.
Comment by: Teresa Terrell
Fri., Oct. 21, 2016 at 6:11 pm UTC
I was diagnosed with HIV in 1996, since then in 2005 I didn't understand anything about HIV/AIDS except when you contracted it you would not live long after that. I had so many emotions, fear anger and denial; so I stop taking those very harsh meds with awful side effects, nor was I keeping my medical appointments. Well it took exactly 2 years for my health to decline. I had developed pneumonia, viral load sky high and my CD4 count was 12 extremely low. I stayed in the hospital for 4 months, and was counted out, along with now being diagnosed with AIDS, it was to the point of my mother making funeral arrangements for me. My body started to except the meds and I eventually started to improve and I was release and I started to fight for my life, doing whatever was advised to me by my provider. The meds got better with new found regiments that were being discovered and more conducive to the patients. Today I am and have been undetectable since 2008. I learned all I could about HIV/AIDS and had a provider that went way beyond the call of duty and made home visits to treat and take care of me diligently, she also encouraged me to help other patients and the community with serving on a Community Advisory Board (CAB), Today I strive for viral suppression, medication adherence and staying into care by resolving whatever barriers they may face for all of my patients that I serve as a Patient Navigator and Community Health Educator.
Comment by: J. Smith
(Tulsa , Ok)
Thu., Oct. 20, 2016 at 1:39 pm UTC
Its great that so many people are doing well and have undetectable viral loads.Being positive since 1986 and currently undetectable viral load has been met with lots of challenges mentally and physically like the onset of hypertension as well as high cholestral due to some of these drugs. I have been diagnosed with multiple pain issues that doctors can't seem to explain.I don't live in a very progressive state so you could imagine what I'm faced with when it comes to healthcare providers. Everybodys experience is as pleasant as most of the comments posted but that won't deter me from pushing forward trying to educate people on the downside.
Comment by: Scott DeBerg
(East Troy, WI)
Sun., Sep. 25, 2016 at 12:57 am UTC
I am one of the lucky ones I guess. I almost hate to share my story, but there are those of us who have had this outcome. I was diagnosed in 2009 - and probably had been positive since 2001, my doc estimates. When I was diagnosed, my CD4 count was 9. I have been above 100 once since then - a year ago. I've been hovering between 85-105 for a year and a half - so have reached "the next level". The summer of '09 - when I was diagnosed - after starting ARV therapy, I went through IRIS. But the only outward OI I had was MAC - in my left hand - which I had pierced & drained - and then...done. I have never had a problem with any of my meds, at least outwardly. My doc took me off Prezista, Truvada & Norvir after about 3 years, due to it affecting my kidneys somewhat. Been on older meds - generic nevirapine and Epzicom - for the past four years - again, no side effects. My doc keeps pretty good records on me, because my CD4 count has always been so low, but I've never presented with an OI (outside the first 3 months) - and I've never really had a problem with my meds. I really DO NOT LIKE sharing this - because I know it's not as easy for a lot of HIV+ folks. But I think it's important to know the exceptions with these cases as well. I am eternally grateful for my outcome - and certainly hope & wish that it becomes less of a burden for every one of my fellow HIV+ brothers & sisters out there who are fighting the good fight against HIV/AIDS. Much love to you all.
Comment by: alex
Tue., Oct. 18, 2016 at 12:31 am UTC thank you for sharing brother. you never know who/how you'll inspire someone. you did.
Comment by: paul
Sat., Sep. 24, 2016 at 9:35 pm UTC
i have been on hiv drugs since 1986 and have type 2 diabetic and on high blood pressure pills and cholesterol drugs and i work.. i get so so weak and tired,,,,why
Comment by: Candy H
Wed., Sep. 14, 2016 at 10:27 pm UTC
When my son Roger was diagnosed back in 1992 he was just 25 yrs old. We panicked because we knew nothing.As the mother if an HIV-Pos son, I was sure our lives were over. My son lost all of the beacons in his life. Those markers we follow that help us to keep on the straight and narrow. He became careless and non-compliant and couldn't figure out where he fit in. We were living in a small town in the mid-west at the time. Me? I was sure I was about to lose my only son to a horrible scary disease so first I joined a 'support group' and went to my first meeting. I sat there in horror as I realized that I was the only mother in the room whose son was still living!I've never felt more out of place and alone.Fast forward 23 years and today, after years of research, self-education, paying attention to all the advances lots of tears and fears, Roger is undetectable and I'm not afraid anymore. In fact he's so healthy that his HIV is sort of a non-issue these days. Yes he has dementia and didn't always take care of himself over the years and like me, has been through a million changes. Anger, fear, non-compliance, awakenings, joys and so many more. I thought that even though I'm not the one with HIV, I wanted to give you a mother's point of view because I've been right there with him every step of the way. My story is so much longer and detailed than space allows for here but I hope you got the point. He is undetectable......I don't have fears and nightmares and we are not ostracized and avoided like we were back then. Roger did leave Michigan and move back to Seattle where we're from and this works for the both of us. I'll be seeing him for the holidays this year. Who knew back in the Summer of 1992 that we'd ever see this day!
Comment by: alex
Tue., Oct. 18, 2016 at 12:33 am UTC bravo to you, mom. thanks to you AND roger for being CHAMPIONS!
Comment by: Joshua
Wed., Sep. 14, 2016 at 6:14 am UTC
Eventhough, I'm undetectedable I find it hard to be in a stable relationship because I worry that even if sex veers toward being unprotected there still a small chance I can hurt them. However, the negative since I get to live undetectable. I know I get see another day of happiness, and changing lives for the better.
Comment by: David
Tue., Sep. 6, 2016 at 10:11 pm UTC
In 2024 I will reach a mile stole in being undetectable, 20 years.im reaching this goal because I follow my doctors advice and we work together on finding ways relieve stress and the right foods to eat. I'm living a full and happy life thanks to having a doctor that cares the way she does for me. On my 10th anniversary for being undetectable she gave me a cupcake with a candle let see what she does when I hot 20.
Comment by: John
(Fort Lauderdale, FL)
Mon., Sep. 5, 2016 at 10:31 pm UTC
I had a very high viral load and low CD 4 count when diagnosed. With the help of botanical medicine, herbs such as astragalus root, Echinacea extract to boost the immune system and natural viral suppressants like olive leaf extract and oregano essential oil brought my T cells up to over 500 (from less than 100) and my viral load from over 310,000 to undetectable in less than 2 months. I'm sure that the HIV meds helped, but my doctors have never seen a change that quickly. I feel that the entire was de to the herbs.
Comment by: Doni H
Wed., Aug. 24, 2016 at 6:34 pm UTC
I've been "undetectable" for about 6 years now. Once they FINALLLY determined a combo that worked for me, it's been such. It was like someone told me "You've got a second life." Trust me....I'm utilizing it to the fullest!
Comment by: Mark H
Tue., Aug. 9, 2016 at 5:42 pm UTC
It took only 28 days after starting medication for my viral load to drop to undetectable. Early detection, treatment and adherence are essential to your health and your partners health.
Comment by: L
Sun., Jun. 19, 2016 at 10:44 pm UTC
Being undetectable is awesome! Now to learn to afford once you feel well enough to work you can't afford unless I was extremely wealthy! Viread 1400, Tivicay 1900, Epzicom 1800.00 (approx. prices) and they are all tier 4 or 5 prescriptions according to insurance companies causing a patient to have to pay 30 to 40 percent of the drug cost. Pretty crazy. I am working 40 hours a week at mininuium wage at the end of the month working 40 hour weeks I bring home about 320.00. Isn't that special. I am so disgusted perhaps.
Comment by: Jen
Wed., Nov. 23, 2016 at 12:35 am UTC There are LOTS of programs to help with the costs! Look around your area for AIDS task forces.
Comment by: Deon Jones
(Panama City Beach, FL)
Sat., Jun. 18, 2016 at 10:04 pm UTC
It was something I didn't think I'd see. After days of forgetting to take my medication, or eating and falling asleep instead of taking it after right after. It was a struggle. After about 7 years I finally was. My caseworker had mixed up my record with another of her clients 7 months ago and told me. And I actually believed it but something still didn't feel right. I got new labs done and my doctor told me I wasn't undetectable and one of my mess wasn't working, so he put me on new mess.....then 6 weeks later I got new labs done and well the rest is history. I was undetectable. I have an appointment next month to get more done and every six months I will get them done from now on instead of every 3. I still have a lot to learn about it, but after a heartbreaking relationship . I decided to refrain from all kinds of sexual intercourse until I find the right person. It's been 1 year and almost three months sense I last had any sex and I feel great. Sex can be more stressful than relief if it's with the wrong person. So I remain faithful to God and patiently wait for the next chapter.
Comment by: James
Tue., Jun. 7, 2016 at 1:42 pm UTC
These are all great inspirational stories. Nelson, you are a huge success. There are so few people that have lived as long as you have with HIV. Keep up the good fight and hopefully soon there will be a cure.
Comment by: Tony Byers
Sun., Jun. 5, 2016 at 7:37 pm UTC
I have been undetectable three months after I started meds and have been ever since. it's been 7 years now and I am thankful for every year of good health. I found out I was positive within the first year of having the disease as well
Comment by: Steven
Wed., May. 18, 2016 at 4:52 pm UTC
I think "undetectable" is a misnomer. It doesn't mean one is virus free; only that current tests are not sensitive enough to detect low levels of virus. I'm not saying this is a bad thing. But it's important to remember that just because one is deemed "undetectable", doesn't mean the virus has left their system.
Comment by: James Fabiano
(Miami beach , Fl)
Mon., May. 16, 2016 at 3:19 pm UTC
I diagnosed 2 yrs ago with a viral load of 66,000 and T cells 239. I began immediately on HIV meds. I am glad to say I have been undetectable for coming up on 2yrs this August and my T cells are now 889. I am also in recovery coming up on 10 yrs and feel healthier and look it as well at 47 better than at 27 or 37. Take your meds and follow your doctor's orders. This is treatable if you follow instructions....
Comment by: Aaron
Thu., Apr. 14, 2016 at 11:34 am UTC
I was diagnosed at the young age of 19. Nearly 11 years ago. When i was younger, the thought of being positive seemed like a dearh sentense. I didnt start ART until 2 years later. When i first got my prescription, i stared at it for hours, just crying thinking to myself, "this pill is what will keep me alive now."
After getting started on it i had a large improvement in my tests. It wasnt until i was 24 or 25 that i realized what such a milestone i had reached too being undetectable. I spoke with my dr and she had told me the reason people still stay sick is because they choose not to take their meds regularly. She commended me for being so faithful to the meds and how it will continue my undetectable levels. Here i am 30 yeats old hand have remained undetectable for almost 8 years. Each time i get my labs back and hear, "You're still undetectable Aaron, good job", its a continuous milestone.
Comment by: Lisa Britt
Wed., Apr. 13, 2016 at 4:44 am UTC
It's been a little over 4 years since I've started taking my cocktail's.Being undetectable really feels good. I've was diagnosed in 2003 with HIV. The journey has been a life changing experience but for the better. I love myself even more now. One main reason because I've become closer to Jesus more and more. He's my new found Prince of Peace. Learning to network with different people and AIDS organizations has taught me that this is a new beginning of life and not a death sentence. I do understand how people can reject you for having this virus. But it's their loss and my gain to help educate more people, especially our youth in today's society. Speaking up and out to middle and high schools students is the most uplifting educational thing I love to do now. Speaking to the world in the Essence Magazine, The New York Times Newspaper and live on the Rickey Smiley Morning Show, has given me a chance to feel free. Feeling just like my organization, Butterfly Girls, LLC. We transform lives from the inside and out. Understanding that this is what God wants me to do, his will. I will continue to speak about me living a positive life and not feel ashamed or guilty. There is no shame in my game.
Comment by: Mark Shaffer
Mon., Apr. 11, 2016 at 6:13 pm UTC
This is all NEWS to me that 70% of the population can't reach undetectable levels. This was never talked about with my medical care team. It was never a concern. I went from 117,000 VL to Undetectable in a matter of 3 months. So I really don't know what to say as far as supporting or comforting those who can't get to Undetectable levels. My Heart is heavy and my soul is sorrowful for any one who is HIV+ because as with any disease or condition I wish none of it upon anyone. Overall, HIV is a part of me but it's not who I am. It doesn't define me. Love, Peace, and Happiness to all.
Comment by: Jeff
Fri., Mar. 11, 2016 at 8:30 pm UTC
I found out March 3rd 2013 that I was positive with a viral load of 1000 my doctor said I didn't need medication right away but because I was suffering my a deadly Flu virus that I've never had fully immobilize me I told my doctor to give me the meds anyway and the month after April 1st 2013 I was diagnosed as undetectable with a viral load of 19 and a CD4 of 893 so I was lucky and smart. I know my body and I know some doctors want you to be sick so they can get a paycheck so I took the meds right away and changed my status. Now I'm healthy.
Comment by: Matthew
Sat., Mar. 5, 2016 at 11:18 pm UTC
I have been infected for 21yrs and I am now undetectable. I have been in this status now for 10yrs. This has become a remarkable achievement fore and those living with HIV. I amazed with the research and the studies done with this desiese. I owe this not only to the medication but also to the amazing Doctors who have worked with me for years to control this.
Comment by: Mike Bray
(San Diego, ca)
Sat., Mar. 5, 2016 at 1:38 am UTC
I have tested positive for the virus since 1985. I have been through more ups and downs than a roller coaster. I have had my viral load down to undectebal several times. Over the years my viral load has gone up and down but my T-cells remained stable until a little over a year ago when they started to drop.my t-cell count has gone from the mid 400s diwn to my latest count of 97. My viral load is undetectable however. I am doing well, I have had a few health issues and hospitalizations over the last year but I am now going back to work. I am hoping that my t-cell counts will soon rebound
Comment by: c1no1
(Fort Worth, TX)
Sat., Mar. 5, 2016 at 12:11 am UTC
I recall posting here once I learned of my HIV positive status in 2010. I wasnt very fond of some of the responses I received so I deleted the post. My pride and misinformation made me very naive about seeking treatment. It wasnt until December 2015 when it was recommended that I be admitted to the hospital as a full blown AIDS patient with a CD4 count of 60 and a VL count of 200k+ that I agreed to start treatment. After about 2 weeks on the new single pill regimen Genvoya my IDC gave me the undetectable status update. It still has not fully registered with me mentally that the virus is suppressed and my CD4 count is upwards of 400, but I feel great. I wanted a CURE, but now realize that I only lost 6 years of living by not starting treatment sooner. Dont be like me. Seek treatment immediately. They have come a long way addressing treatment and I am glad I finally did.
Comment by: Cindy
Thu., Mar. 3, 2016 at 10:43 pm UTC
I was married for 28 years when I was infected by my now ex husband. I was diagnosed almost 9 years ago. It did not take long at all for me to reach undetectable. My tcells were last in the 1700 range. I attribute this to my adherence to the meds. I've never missed a dose. I am determined to survive 9 years ago I thought my career was over, more so my entire life. "How long do I have to live" was in the forefront of my brain as well as a deep desire to crawl under a rock. I was angry. So angry that I became sick from it. All those emotions wrapped up with a big red ribbon. I still battle today with the anger. Finding out that someone knew they had it and did not disclose. 9 years later I'm still here yes the old me died that day at a routine family dr visit, but a new me was born. I continue to do what I love just more passionately. I take nothing for granted. I thank God for giving us great doctors and scientists who have brought us this far in the fight for a cure and medicines to act as a functional cure until that day.
Comment by: DR Z
Tue., Dec. 22, 2015 at 5:11 pm UTC
I was infected with hiv around 6 years ago by someone who had full blown AIDS who I believe has died now, I would/could not accept having the virus, I turned to drink and drugs and blocked hiv from my mind, and refused to accept I had it, I would not see a doctor and refused to even talk about it with anyone. Eventually I saw a doc and got on meds, Triumeq. I have been on my meds around 6 months and only today 22nd Dec 2015 have I become undetectable. I'm so over joyed I feel like life is worth living again, I still get depressed, I feel alive again, do not take drugs or drink..I just thought I'd add my 2p worth in the hope it helps someone reading this, get on meds asap. I'm lucky I get free meds, I'm male 44 years old, spent 20 years in prisons, so I have been though some unmentionable shti..no matter what life throws at you there is a way out of your situation, stay strong people and stay safe.. Peace and love to all the people who use thebody.com and anyone else who is reading this and feels low/depressed/unhappy..just to read someone's story can boost your mood.
Love & Kisses to all
Comment by: Maria
Fri., Dec. 18, 2015 at 11:37 pm UTC
I was diagnosed in 2013,i started medication in 2014 October.now i'm undetectable.thank you to The Body Team,especially Nelson.you've been my mentor and adviser everytime i ask a question.Thank you so much.
Comment by: Thomas E.Maciejewski
Wed., Sep. 2, 2015 at 5:19 pm UTC
As my HUSBAND and I have HIV for over 27 years each and are undectable both of us thaxs to our Clinic a very good Dr. so this is so hard to believe.P/S I'm on Facebook Thaxs again
Comment by: Ed
Thu., Aug. 27, 2015 at 11:27 pm UTC
First of all, dont't start your page with a religious leader. There's more reason to fight HIV than religion. I'VE been in this club since '92...before y'all were born. Try again and maybe more of us who show real promise for your futures will be replying. Cheers
Comment by: Tori Luchsinger
Mon., Jul. 27, 2015 at 10:07 pm UTC
I was diagnosed in 2010 started meds in2012 when I became pregnant and have been undetectable ever since I have had two children both healthy and negative I'm truly grateful for the medication that I believe is saving my lufe and the lives of so many other people who have suffered from this terrible disease although I struggle with the reality of having HIV I continue to take me medicine every morning
Comment by: me
Mon., Jul. 27, 2015 at 5:38 pm UTC
I don't really understand I have been positive for 10 years in October and wad was on crack at the time I stopped that and I went to an undetectable count I have never been on any meds and go every year to check my blood but it doesn't get worse. I don't want it to I just want to know why I hear all these horror stories and I am the dame as the first day I found out almost. Is there such a thing as just being a host?
Comment by: Adrian
Fri., Oct. 30, 2015 at 4:39 pm UTC Your what they refer to as a 'non-progressor'.
Comment by: Marc
Wed., Mar. 9, 2016 at 2:36 pm UTC Thank you "someone" for talking about this. I have been diagnosed for over 6 years (and they think I was + for about 10 - 11 years. My viral load remains at under 100 (from 25 - 100) and my CD4 at no less than 13,000. I have one dr. who still wants me to begin meds.. and one doctor who studies "long term nonprogressors" and see no reason to begin treatment. I have full and complete check ups each year and blood work every 3-4 months.) I am still on NO meds, but always feel "guilty" that I am not. Yet, I am not convinced that taking meds now is going to help me, in fact, may hurt me in the long run. Please, please... write an article about those of us who are in this predicament. It's a lonely space in which to be! (By the way, I am have the B57 gene, which is a marker for suppressing HIV.)
Comment by: life is worth living
Sat., Jun. 13, 2015 at 8:00 pm UTC
Love for others is learning how to be love. Christ accept our burdens. Christ brings peace and helps us to a person who is kind to themselves and to others. That is the cure in my opinion.
Comment by: alex
Tue., Oct. 18, 2016 at 12:48 am UTC amen. peace unto you.
Comment by: Sheila Borton
Thu., Mar. 20, 2014 at 10:55 am UTC
I was diagnosed in 2005. I have been undetectable for over 6 years now.I've been on treatment for over 9 years also.I was down to 230 on my CD 4 count.And my viral load was 1034.To me that's not very high.Every time I go in to get tested it shows I am undetectable.Ever since I have been taking my medication.It shows that my medication is working on me just fine.I hear if we do miss our medications enough times it can build a resistance and not work.I did have problems at first taking my medication.I kept on forgetting my meds.Until I was told what can happen to me if I keep forgetting my meds.So I never forgot again.I take it every time with my meals.And I feel a lot better now,knowing taking my medication is very important to me in my everyday life.
Comment by: Robert
Thu., Mar. 6, 2014 at 4:13 pm UTC
HURRAY and HALALLUA ,is what I've got to say,have been POS for twenty years,and though it has been the test of a lifetime to survive the countless challenges and barriers,and all the life's endless learning to survive (with the help of every concievible friend , physician, social workers and the number of programs) ,this NEWS relieve's so much fear and guilt that maybe just maybe,we weren't careful enough with a sex partner is indeed HUGE news for myself and countless others.
Comment by: ben
Sun., Oct. 27, 2013 at 7:29 am UTC
I thank God, have had undetectable viral load for now a year,please advice, i really want to get married to lady of same status.. what should i do i dont want to keep advertising my self... Preferably am looking at alady not from uganda
Comment by: Chas
Fri., Aug. 30, 2013 at 12:57 pm UTC
I was diagnosed in 2010 and have been undetectable since 2011. My T Cells are at 1,000. I am married and my wife is not infected with HIV. I also continue to exercise 3 to 5 days a week. I cycle anywhere from 20-100 miles at a time and do high intensity weight training with a cardio component mixed in. I am 60 years old. I eat healthy most of the time and I take Atripla and Juice-Plus. Juice Plus is 17 fruits and vegetables. Dr. Dubois an Infectious disease specialist has all of his patients on this product as well as their HIV medicine. I am as overall fit today as I was when I was in my twenties. I am 5' 9" 175 lbs with a 32 waist. I am only 5 lbs difference from my high school weight. I say this to encourage you to eat well and begin an exercise program that you can do safely yet progresses as you improve.
Comment by: Evan
Tue., Jul. 16, 2013 at 10:08 pm UTC
Started meds right after getting C Diff from antibiotics which appeared to only be partially treated. Experience terrible GI tract issues for 8 months after and even though I never missed my med my virl load continued to remain around 200.
At this point I finally got the GI issues resolved but my testosterone was also went down so I started very dose replacement therapy and returned to the gym. One year of hard training later and 20 months after I started meds my testosterone was normal and I was finally undetectable. I believe the GI issues messed with my immune system so severely that the meds were unable to drive down the virus properly and my testosterone in turn also suffered. That said, when I started meds my t-cells went as low as 350 and my percentage was 15 today, now nearly 3 years after starting meds no have I remained undetectable, my t-cells are around 490 but my percentage is 41 (the highest is has been since being dagnosed). I highly recommend weight training though I imagine any good physical regiment would greatly benefit your long term health!
Comment by: Bradley
Mon., Jun. 17, 2013 at 1:43 am UTC
I just really want to thank Nelson for pointing out to me that I'm one of the lucky few on the planet that these life saving drugs are available to. You know, it's way too easy to start feeling sorry for oneself living with HIV and all that comes with that diagnosis. Until you realize that there are millions and millions of people who would love to have my struggles instead of what they're going through. Everybody alive today is trying to overcome something in life. After watching Nelson's 5 minute video, I'm adding self pitty to my list of things to put behind me. Thanks for the wake-up call Nelson, you da man!
Comment by: alex
Tue., Oct. 18, 2016 at 12:47 am UTC ...and bradley you are the man too...positive energy can be so contagious, especially when it's genuine. stray strong brotha.
Comment by: Hank
Wed., Jun. 5, 2013 at 12:20 pm UTC
So I just wanted to throw out there that while reaching undetectable was a happy day in my life, it happened relatively quickly. The day that I still sit in awe about happened just a few weeks ago. I started meds with a cd4 count of 224, now its 746. For the first time in my ten years of having HIV my cd4 count is above where is was when I was diagnosed. No virus, plenty of cd4's to go around. Thank you to the staff of the Mazzoni Center in Philadelphia for keeping so many of us going!
Comment by: Charles
Wed., Jun. 5, 2013 at 10:40 am UTC
I was sitting at mt desk at work when my doctor's nurse called me with my test results and said that I was doing wonderfully on the medication. When I didn't hear the word "undetectable" I was concerned but when I asked for my VL number she said it was very low, so low in fact that it really didn't matter...So I flat out asked was I undetectable and she confirmed that I was....yeah!!!! I asked for the results to be faxed to me and when I actually read the results I was excited. An undetectable result is only as good as the HIV test being used. My next set of labs showed a VL of 26 which meant I was no longer undetectable but in context 26 could have been lower than the actual VL on my previous test. Staying close to your numbers is the best way to monitor your health....
Comment by: Matt
Tue., May. 21, 2013 at 10:34 am UTC
I have been un-detectable for 5 years now I have been on Atripla all this time and have not missed a single dose. Proof that as long as you stay on your meds and don't miss any doses hopefully you can also get to this level and stay at it.
Comment by: Sad
Wed., May. 15, 2013 at 2:52 am UTC
My son was diagnosed HIV positive in 2012. He went on treatment and now has an undetectable viral load. However... he is lonely and is avoiding any relationship with anybody. He thinks he will never be able to find someone to love him because of his status. He is such an attractive young man but his heart aches for a partner that will accept him with his status.
Comment by: Natalie Trudeaux
Mon., May. 13, 2013 at 8:13 pm UTC
I suffer from aids depression and it affects my daily living habits.how do i know if my aids meds are still effectve? can someone tell me what kind of blood test i need to know, my atripla is making me deathly sick and i need a change in cocktail.
Comment by: Bradley
Mon., Jun. 17, 2013 at 1:15 am UTC Hey Nat, I too was depressed and found out that the advanced state of my HIV disease had robbed me of my testosterone. Now I take hormone replacement therapy and I feel like a new man, I'm engaged in life again, I have enough energy to get things done and have an all around sense of well being. Before you switch off the Atripla (I take that too) be sure you ask your doctor to test your blood for sufficient hormone levels, if you haven't already. That could be a possible solution to feeling better without having to start down the road of anti-depressant meds. Best Wishes, I hope you get feeling better soon!
Comment by: Peter
(San Francisco, CA)
Sun., May. 12, 2013 at 9:54 pm UTC
I was undetectable for years. Then, I had to stop meds due to an allergic reaction. My doctor, who has since left the field, would not put me back on meds until lab tests were completed. Well, 5 months later, my viral load was 6 MILLION! The doctor was gone and a new doctor had to pick up where the other doctor left. I've been back on meds since January of 2013. My viral load is back to undetectable, even with the new more sensitive test. So, want to live? Stay on your meds. Nuff said?
Comment by: Shirley Hilda
Wed., May. 8, 2013 at 2:26 pm UTC
I was diagnosed HIV+ 2007 and am 57 years old. I take Atripla and have been lucky not to have to change it. Became undetectable 3-4 months after diagnose. Now i'm experiencing toenail fungus - and finally found out that it may be HIV related. My 1st time here using a public forum to talk about myself. Such a lonely time for me-and I don't know what to do, where to turn to for support. Maybe this will be a start.
Comment by: Bradley
Mon., Jun. 17, 2013 at 1:25 am UTC Hi Shirley, I was diagnosed with late stage AIDS in 2008 at age 45. I was so, so sick and had many opportunistic infections, including nail fungus. My doctor was going to prescribe me an oral medication to fight the fungus but I read that anti-fungal meds. can react with Atripla so I use topical treatments for it. If you are consistent with it, you can do wonders for making nail fungus go away and there are several products out there that you can buy over the counter without a prescription. Talk to your pharmacist to find one that will work for you. Good Luck!
Comment by: alex
Tue., Oct. 18, 2016 at 12:44 am UTC i wish i was near you. i'd have you soak you feet in bragg's apple cider vinegar. it does wonders. i swear to you. then i'd give you a big hug. try it before you stress out. keep faith. keep fighting, girlfriend. we NEED you.
Comment by: subash
Tue., Apr. 30, 2013 at 12:08 pm UTC
2009 my cd4 is 800 now it is 640, whether I have to start meds, but my Dr suggesting to wait for few months, is it correct. I using Novastat 1 pill everyday, is there any risk.
Comment by: quintus murray
Tue., Jun. 11, 2013 at 10:16 am UTC START MEDS NOW!!! Recent studies now say otherwise and suggest starting treatment immediately after diagnosis. Look at french cohort and other articles just say you want treatment now.
Comment by: alex
Tue., Oct. 18, 2016 at 12:39 am UTC doesn't sound logical to wait until a condition worsens then get treatment. would you wait to get help if you had a deep cut on your hand?
Comment by: JAIME LOUISE DOUCETTE
(1110COMOX STREET VANCOUVER B.C. APT.405)
Sun., Apr. 28, 2013 at 12:53 pm UTC
HELLO I AM A 34 YEAR OLD FEMALE WHO HAS BEEN STRUGLING WITH CRYSTAL METH ADDICTION FOR YAERS NOW TODAY I AM 16 DAY'S CLEAN AND I AM STILL UNDECECTIBLE ILOVE LIFE NOW.I HAVE BEEN H.I.V. POSITIVE SINCE I WAS 16 YEARS OLD.
Comment by: Bradley
Mon., Jun. 17, 2013 at 1:35 am UTC Hey Jaime, I struggled with Meth myself and it no doubt contributed to me becoming infected with HIV as I was very promiscuous while I was using. I support you in your effort to stay clean and can tell you it only gets better. I've been clean for about 6 yrs. now and discovered that as time went on in my recovery, bits and pieces of myself I didn't even know I had lost were coming back bit by bit. You'll feel like yourself in no time, just do WHATEVER you have to do to not use again! I had to go to Alaska for awhile to get away from the scene in Portland, OR where I am originally from. Sometimes you've gotta just do it for you and nobody but you. Yes, some people may not understand or they may feel hurt but continuing to party with a positive HIV status is pure madness. You need to ask yourself, "do I want to live or do I want to die?" I hope you will choose life, it get's better. Trust me, I've been where you are and if I can do it, you can too! Praying for you here in Washington, be well!
Comment by: alex
Tue., Oct. 18, 2016 at 12:37 am UTC bravo to you jaime AND to bradley and all those folks fighting ---i mean thriving in recovery and undection. i salute you all:)
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