November 30, 2012
I am proud that I am not embarrassed by this diagnosis. I am proud that it has made me stronger and I didn't turn myself into a victim. I am proud that I have befriended the woman who acquired HIV from the same man as me.
I am proud that I do not know how to shut up either on paper or orally. I am proud that when I was diagnosed I began doing research to learn, and find out as much information as I could about HIV and my new life.
I am proud that I became friends with women who replied to my blog via email or Facebook and now I have HIV girlfriends across the Earth who KNOW how I feel. They have negative husbands and children and also feel like they bear this burden on their own. Yes we have support, but it's not the same as knowing what we go through daily. After each sexual encounter. Or just looking at our children wondering in reality how much time we really have with them.
I am proud that I majored in journalism and that Olivia Ford asked me if I wanted to blog for The Body. It was only my lifelong dream to be an editorialist, so thank you for allowing me to have my voice be heard.
I am proud that I say things other people think but don't have the guts to say, because they are worried about what other people think. People will like you, or they won't. If they only like you because you shut up about how you feel, how TRUE is that? It is my goal to make a difference; to warn people that HIV is more real than the zombie Apocalypse.
I am proud that I am true to myself, I am afraid, I am strong and I will keep talking and writing to help others who cannot.
Brooke Davidoff got married, found out she was pregnant and found out she was HIV positive all in a few short months; she began writing about her experiences almost immediately. Her son Myles was born on July 15, 2010. Myles, Brooke and her husband live in Seattle.
Read Brooke's blog, Voice of ONE.