October 8, 2012
Being HIV positive is not fun, at least not for me. At some point, a person who is in my shoes starts thinking about the process of medications, doctors visits and everything in between that they have to do to keep themselves as healthy as possible. I believe that this is possibly one of the greatest stressors for people with any chronic illness.
I typically tend to go from well to having no energy throughout the day constantly. After awhile, it becomes tiring trying to keep up with everything. So I have contemplated stopping medications due to just an abundance of stress I experience on an off-and-on basis. Grant you, my cocktail worked great for me. I have remained undetectable for years and my cd4 count is in a good range. However, I wonder if all the medical problems I am experiencing are related to taking them, sort of as a long term effect. I don't know. That is purely my opinion not that it may be correct at all. Sometimes I wonder when is enough, enough. Maybe I am just stubborn and tired of following the same routine. I am used to change and I love it.
I am very aware of the challenges of not taking medicines especially when I have been through the wringer with a variety of health issues in the last few years. I have always had a strong belief in getting advice from someone who knows what it is like to be in your situation. I was curious on the opinions that would come forth once I asked my question on Facebook.
All these lovely individuals are absolutely right. My medication is a lifeline and I really loathe the thought of getting worse. I love the idea but I cant do that I suppose. My life is too beautiful to just go out like that. Way too beautiful, besides I have worked too hard in my life to turn back now. It is great to know I am not alone in this fight. Sometimes having a reminder that others understand is the reward you need just to be kind to yourself and do what is right for YOU.
Read Ria's blog Lyfe Positive.