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Facing the Past of Addiction

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By Aaron Laxton

October 2, 2012

In this video I talk about a moment in which I am reminded of the person that I was when I relapsed on crystal. I have been clean for 265 days and with each day it gets easier. Being in recovery means taking one day at a time. I know that may sound silly to some, but to an addict using one time is too many and a million times is never enough. Keep working the steps ... they work if you work them.

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Comment by: Am (St. Louis,MO) Thu., Dec. 13, 2012 at 2:36 am UTC
Hi. I am also a recovering addict (injection of heroin) who has had many relapses,unfortunately. I will be starting an outpatient program in a week and have already underwent detox in a hospital to help with the physical withdrawal symptoms and been prescribed suboxone to help with the cravings,which so far hasn't proven very effective for me,unless I am supposed to take it for a long period of time before it becomes effective,I am not sure,have not been told that before. Anyway,recently I have been beating myself up thinking I may have acquired HIV from risky behaviors such as sexual favors for money and sharing of drug injection equipment,though not particularly needles...heroin in itself destroyed my life,I am at an all time low and if I have acquired HIV,it is due to my poor judgement and poor choices during the course of my addiction. So,to all those out there living with a heroin addiction,I tell you now,it isn't worth it. Heroin can result in a short term high,but HIV is a lifelong illness. Heroin greatly distorts your sense of good decision making...just don't do it,and if you do,please get into treatment to save your life!
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Comment by: Aaron Laxton (St. Louis) Fri., Jul. 19, 2013 at 3:33 pm UTC
Thank you for sharing your experience and story! I hope that you are doing well with your recovery! -Aaron

Comment by: Anonymous Sat., Oct. 13, 2012 at 12:13 pm UTC
Hello, Aaron! Thanks for the experience, truth and hope. I am also an addict, in recovery: from drugs, alcohol, and sex. I am apart of NA and CMA. It is wonderful to know the what recovery takes is willingness, honesty and open-mindedness. It is great to know that the greatest weapon against active addiction is another recovery addict. May we continue to experience our clean-time because of the spiritual experience that has and is manifesting itself within our lives. God bless!
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My HIV Journey

Aaron Laxton

Aaron Laxton

I am simply a guy who on June 6, 2011, received the news that over 33 million people have received: I am HIV positive. I decided in that split moment to record the journey that I was embarking on so that I might help others as they receive that news.

I am not a doctor and I do not endorse any agenda other than simply living a healthy life. I am an activist and advocate and simply want to make the world a better place. I hold a degree in sociology and psychology. I am a product of the Missouri Foster System and this is one of my main passions, second only to the work I do with HIV/AIDS outreach and prevention.

I embrace a sex-positive model. People are going to have sex; it is a natural part of who we are. However we need to make sure that it is safe. I can be found on weekends throughout St. Louis, Missouri, passing out condoms and safe-sex kits.

I am now an M.S.W. student at Saint Louis University's College of Public Health and Social Justice and the School of Social Work.

Whether in St. Louis, D.C. or around the nation, I always jump at the chance to help change not only policies to better serve those that need help but to also change the landscape of the society that we live in.

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