August 23, 2012
Have you ever wanted to know what the soundtrack of your life would be? If moments in your life had a theme song that played or fit that exact moment what would it be?
Since yesterday was a lazy and equally stressful one for me, this morning I found myself sitting in my living room, writing poetry, listening to music and waiting for my one of my princesses (my oldest niece) to awake ... I was wondering just that.
Here is what I came up with after a brief evaluation:
This song was meant to play at my exact moment of birth. After all, it is my namesake. To this day, I will stop what I am doing and dance to it like he wrote it just for me, but unfortunately it was released 11 years before I was even thought about. Hey, can't blame a woman for dreaming.
If you have ever seen the revised version of Hairspray, you have heard this powerful song. When I first heard it, I instantly related to it. As a child, adolescent and adult, I struggled with manic depression, suicide attempts and ideation, grief, eating disorders and self injury to cope, and often struggled with people particularly accepting these issues as real afflictions. I always told myself that I could learn to cope and accomplish happiness and goals in my own way. People never know what the next person has been through and I have been through plenty. This song represents this emotion well. When I look back on my past years on Mother Earth, I am proud of where I am today.
Oh, how I loved Selena. Besides Gloria Estefan, she was one of the first Latin women I can remember in my teens who transitioned into English speaking songs. Unfortunately this happened before she died, but this was the song out of a few that will always be in my mental database forever. The name says it all. R.I.P., Beautiful.
WHAT! I love my Neo-Soul ... poetry turned into music is just beautiful and sista girl hit this one out of the park. According to the Urban Dictionary (gotta love it), a hater is a person that simply cannot be happy for another person's success. So rather than be happy they make a point of exposing a flaw in that person to bring them down. Hating, the result of being a hater, is not exactly jealousy. The hater doesn't really want to be the person he or she hates, rather the hater wants to knock someone else down a notch. This is my song dedicated to them all; young or old ... DOUBLE DEUCES ... I am going to still do me.
Okay, so you know when you just get fed up with someone that you are no longer in love with or just can't stand to be around them anymore for your sake? I find that this song is reminiscent of when you start missing things that they "used" to do and the person you call your man/woman is beginning to treat you like that "friend with benefits" other than the couple you thought you were. This is when you play this song over and over. Mend that heart and remember that this too shall past.
I think we have all had circumstances where you might have parted with people in your life and they come back and that hardcore exterior you thought you had comes down. The beauty in this song is that it admits all those feelings you didn't know you had at the time of the initial departure. Nuff said.
I have wanted this song played or sung during my first dance with my future husband during our wedding reception since it first came out. It just fits everything I should feel about him and his feelings should equally match of course. You have to admit, it is beautiful to have these feelings about someone. It is always someone out there for everyone who will make them feel this profusely.
Beaches has always been one of my favorite movies of all time. As I got older and subsequently got sick it reminded me of my relationship with one of my closest friends and she refuses to watch it at all. Being a fan of Bette Midler, I naturally think the soundtrack is awesome but this song, however, was a song that reflects the best wishes you would want for any child.
I can't say much about this song because it speaks for itself. What I can say about it is that it has taught me throughout my struggles to just accept what it going on in your life because it can be far worse. I find myself having my own little concert when I am down and want to play the "why me" card. Singing this actually helps. Just have a listen.
This was a favorite of my grandmother. We used to listen to it on the way to church on Sunday mornings faithfully. It coincides with the previous song, that it is no reason to complain about things in your life when people have so much more devastating things going on. In the end, I am lucky to have somewhere to safely lay my head at night and I am blessed to be semi-healthy compared to those who aren't. Who am I to complain? R.I.P., Handsome.
I first heard this song watching Cooley High, in which my mom made her acting debut as an extra, so she took pride in this movie. This song, no matter what cover it is, hits the spot. Who wouldn't want people to have the memories of you good and bad, and this is what I would want to tell the people I love when I leave. It's hard to be left behind when you truly love someone and miss them everyday. To me, this song gets me through a mild case of grief but not always.
I know I am not the only one who has imagined what the afterlife brings. Whether your belief is -- heaven, hell, reincarnation or other -- it still has to cross your mind right? Truth is, I have had near death experiences where I have literally seen the light that most people speak of during such times, only to go back to complete darkness and wake up back in reality. If that moment had a song, this will be it. I imagine this song playing throughout my final ascent wherever that might be.
What is the soundtrack to your life? It is worth a thought isn't it?