Whether you were recently diagnosed or you have been diagnosed for awhile, the day you found out you were positive is a day you will never forget. As you move forward things change and return to normal, whatever that is, but life is never the same. I talk about my own experience.
Comment by: Just Me
Tue., Oct. 16, 2012 at 3:38 pm EDT
This post really hit home for me. The day I found out I was positive I went on to work like any other day. But I was so embarrased. I didn't want people to look at me because I felt like they could tell. I didn't want to see people, including my family because I felt people could tell. Then over time everything that I thought would never be normal again was. I totally identifiy with being reminded of being HIV positve. In some way I suppose you try to forget in some form or another, but never really doing so, because there is always something to remind you. In a way its probably not a bad thing to be reminded because its what u have to deal with. There are moments in the day that I do forget that I am positve but its never gone for a whole day. It does suck that I'll never know true intemacy again with a man that I love, so I know that loss very well. In a way the life that I knew before died on Feburuary 18, 2010, and I'm still uncomfortable with the life that has began. But never the less its here to stay so I go on day to day the best way I can. I have only told one person of my diagnosis, and he is my cousin and best friend all my life. We deal with this alone but together for he is gay as well and we choose to keep it from our family, we are from small town KY, lol. We both moved from small town KY years ago to live better lives and have done so. Anyway, to not get windy and write a book I just wanted to say that this post hit home strongly. And I am coming on 2 years positive, going undetectable and in better health now than before, and am still not sure if the sting of Feburuary 18, 2010 will ever be gone.
Sincerely, Just me
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