Jimmy Mack, 55, Southampton, N.Y.; Diagnosed in 1987
Well, hindsight is always 20/20 and I know now I had to follow the path I chose in order to eventually find spirituality, a High Power and myself. Helen Keller once said: "I thank God for my handicaps, for, through them, I have found myself, my work, and my God." If I change "handicaps" to "diseases" then I, too, can see that the disease of HIV brought out my other disease of alcoholism/addiction, and brought me to me knees where I had nowhere else to turn but to a "God of my understanding" who was always there and always will be. So what would I tell myself at 29 after testing HIV positive? Maybe the same thing that is told to young gay people: "It gets better"; or maybe just simply: "Have faith, it's going to be all right."