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The Girl Who Thought the World Was Round

September 2, 2011

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Chapter 03: 10 Years Old

I was in school located at St Teresa 2 Brickfield; I stay at place call Inner Beach ... my Grandfather and my Grandfather...

My dream was to be a lawyer than go to higher level like Judge. To Judge People who done bad things to people and Judge them fairly.

I used to walk everyday from school to my house all alone every day, my sister will take a school bus that my grandmother already paid. Not that I ever complains even though I can see obviously reason between me and my sisters.

I remember I had an accident after school... It was heavy rain that day... I was running to the bus stop waiting for my grandfather finish work at Mamak stall (food stall), I was playing near the drain and suddenly I lost my balance and fell inside the drain, it was quite deep due to the rain and I could feel myself floating deep behind and at that moment I saw my mom image in my head and I thought I am dying already..Suddenly I feel like a strong hand of man pull my hand and then I feel my lungs full of water, the person who save me was in his 20's something Chinese man and he turn me around and asked me to sit... I saw lots of people looking at me at that time and I saw my grandfather run towards me and ask if I am ok... I nodded my head with still slight blur vision. My grandfather give me some water and told me " You wait here ok, Tokwan going to take you back home soon" and I saw him saying Thank you to the man who save my life and talk to his boss and walk back towards me and he said "Come ", let's go home ...

On the way to our house, while walking he asked me again "Are you really ok?" I nod my head. He said "Let's keep this between us ok, your grandmother doesn't need to know because she will scold you thinking you are careless... I said ok.

Once we reach home of course my grandmother nagging at me and asked me why my cloth was wet and dirty, my grandfather said because it's raining and cars pass by us nearby the water loop on the street, so some of the water hit my clothes. I took a shower, had dinner that night with my grandmother and my grandfather and went to sleep; my sister came back from Tuisyen and run to bed. Since our bed is double storey bed like a bunked bed, I end up sleeping on the top and my sisters choose the bottom bed. I remember my body was shaking so hard that my sister screaming and asked me to shut up thinking I have a bad dream and talking while I was sleeping ... I was crying so hard thinking no body love me in this world, here I am in the near death experienced and no one knows about it other than my grandfather, my tears start pouring hard and I wish my mom and dad are here with me to comfort me and tell me everything going to be ok. I wish I dream about both of them and when I woke up I thought they will be next to me... Of course none of my dream ever happened ...

Of course my day to day to school is the same shit, walking to school, do homework, active in sports and dramas and my academic is excellent.

But they truth is I am never happy at school, people call me names and they never really talk to me because my grandmother is a shaman in my neighborhood and most of the kids in my school, stay nearby my house and they claims that my grandmother keep a ghost or a spirit at home, so that's make people scared of her and me as well. It was sad childhood I would say because I have no friend, I eat lunch or breakfast alone underneath a big tree in my school, I talk to myself pretending that I have magical friend which is just my imagination.

I have been grown up all alone and sometimes I feel like God being very unfair by making parents divorced and I have to bear the consequence of adult problem.

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