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michey1963
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Reged: 04/01/06
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Loc: British Columbia
I am so scared...
      04/04/06 01:01 AM

I think that I have been infected with HIV. I have gone for the test and am just waiting for the results. My doctor told me he would call me when the results came in but I have heard nothing except for a message on my answering machine from his office confirming my appointment for my physical tomorrow. They never call and confirm. I am assuming that because I have heard nothing from my doctor and they want to confirm my appointment, that he is waiting to tell me in person that I am positive because he knows how extremely depressed I was when I requested the test. I felt much better after having asked him for the test and some of the reassurances about HIV now but my feelings really come and go as to being able to handle my emotions. I have to be strong for my son because I am the only one he has and I am so mad at myself for even putting my life and his in jeopardy but there is a lot of baggage there for where that comes from. A couple of weeks ago was the closest I had ever come to actually wanting to committ suicide and on top of that I was even thinking I would want to take my son along with me because I could not bear the thought of him being alone and me not there to protect him. I just hate myself so much right now and don't know how I am going to take this tomorrow. I am just so bloody scared. I have got a lot of information from reading all the posts and articles here and they have been quite reassuring but I am so up and down. Sometimes I think it might be a blessing if I do have HIV because I will have to take much better care of myself and have more respect for myself in a way but I just feel so dirty and horrible about myself. I'm sorry if I am not making any sense but I just had to vent as I am going to have trouble sleeping tonight and just wanted to get a couple things off my chest. Thank you for listening (or reading).

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* I am so scared... michey1963 04/04/06 01:01 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... Anonymous   04/04/06 12:32 PM
. * Re: I am so scared... michey1963   04/04/06 08:01 PM
. * Re: I am so scared... ravi   04/04/06 11:23 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... michey1963   04/04/06 08:06 PM
. * Re: I am so scared... Psalm91   04/05/06 07:33 PM
. * Re: I am so scared... michey1963   04/05/06 10:00 PM
. * Re: I am so scared... sadface   04/05/06 10:44 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... michey1963   04/05/06 10:03 PM
. * Re: I am so scared... michey1963   04/04/06 10:37 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... ItsFaith   04/04/06 10:28 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... firefly   04/04/06 01:57 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... michey1963   04/04/06 02:05 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... sadface   04/04/06 08:04 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... franfrog   04/04/06 08:15 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... firefly   04/04/06 01:13 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... michey1963   04/04/06 01:28 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... firefly   04/04/06 01:29 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... michey1963   04/04/06 01:37 AM
. * Re: I am so scared... firefly   04/04/06 01:43 AM

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