It doesn't surprise me about the social worker handing you the disability papers. Since I tested positive I've become aware of a lot of younger people that are HIV+ and are on disability. Like your social worker, I've often wondered why people think you should automatically just give up and throw in the towel once you've been diagnosed with HIV? Life is what you make of it. It's not the end of the world, but rather a new beginning if a person wants it to be. Pardon me for saying so, but I think riverpriness was actually trying to pay you a compliment for your determination, and I am too. Good luck in your endeavors!