Sounds like you are going a thousand miles a minute. Take a break, breathe and relax. I totally agree with Kicker. Be the best BSN, RN or even doctor you can. Do not let this change anything. Also, think long and hard about disclosing. Remember people talk and once you tell someone, you can never take it back. Unfortunately there is no cure yet so once you tell someone, this will stick with you for a long time. I remember when I first found out, I wanted to tell everyone as I really needed the support. I decided against it and for me, it was definitely the right thing to do. It's a very personal decision but a BIG one so don't take it lightly. Also don't feel like you have to make big decisions today or tomorrow. Just relax, breathe and keep going with a wonderful and fulfilled life. Peace and love to you..