So sorry to hear about you testing positive. I agree 100% with what was just written: this shock will become farther and farther from you as you go on. However, be kind to yourself, cry, feel your feelings, talk to trusted people, and take inventory of what matters to you. I was shocked beyond belief 8 years ago, but I am on anti-retrovirals, I am doing well, and I have learned to live with this virus. You will deal with this and get through the pain; you will learn to develop a regimen, sleep, diet, exercise, etc. that will fit YOU. Take care.