Telling Someone...I really need help and opinions!

Hi everybody, so I am recently diagnosed as being HIV+ and I am slowly trying to digest all the information I can get. It was an overwhelming and scary experience hearing it for the first time. I am still having this negative feeling in my stomach, and I know that this is normal, but I think it's because I am having a hard time trying to disclose to someone about it. He is a casual partner. I feel deathly afraid of telling him.

The last I was tested was last year, and was pretty good at being safe. I had a partner last year that I trusted and saw on a regular basis. Then I met this other guy and we started having sexual relations, and we both knew our status as being negative.

So I haven't been with my first regular partner for a while and we hooked up beginning of Feb of this year, having trusting him, we did have uprotected sex. Then end of Feb, I hooked up with my second casual partner. So I got a call from the public health nurse that I should get tested for HIV. So as of March 2012, definitely diagnosed with having an Acute HIV infection.

Now I know I have to tell my second partner, because I think my first partner gave it to me. He has suddenly removed his profile on manhunt and I just have a hunch. Anyway that is besides the point. I am deathly afraid of telling him, because if I have the nurse call him he's going to know that I might have it or that I gave it to him he he gets tested positive.

I feel at fault here and at this moment I am really hating myself. It was not my intention to him on this situation. I am really not a very confrontational person. When, where is the best time to do this? What do I say, all I know is I have to be truthful. I am just DEATHLY afraid, if it will go down to legal issues.

I have accepted the fact that I have the virus, its just telling him. Please help me! I live in Canada, BC

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