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Reged: 03/11/12
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Loc: Florida
Alone and Numb
      03/17/12 11:27 AM

I was diagnosed a month ago. I had my first ID appointment last week. I am so numb I can't remember much of what he told me. I have a partner of 5 years, but since the day I found out I feel alone. He says we will get through this together, but actions say otherwise. I haven't felt his touch, his kiss, or his embrace since that day. He smiles, he is nice to me, but he tested negative the same day and for him his life hasnt changed. He wont talk about it. He has never asked how am I doing. I feel like I am in my own silent hell. I have told no one, I am scared, I am scared to tell anyone, I cry every day when I am alone. I put up a front like nothing is wrong. I AM NUMB, am I supposed to feel dirty all the time? I am just so lost and my one support system I thought was definite I feel is starting to shun me. It gets better right, please tell me it gets better. I am not a weak person, but I have no strength right now. When will I think I am J and not I am HIV+. Lost. Confused, Alone, and Numb

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* Alone and Numb jtpa 03/17/12 11:27 AM
. * Re: Alone and Numb vbd1966   03/28/12 07:04 PM
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. * Re: Alone and Numb DJones   03/20/12 09:58 PM
. * Re: Alone and Numb riverprincessModerator   03/18/12 01:26 PM

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