I tested positive in January of this year. Since then, I have been carrying around the shame of having caught this. You see, I am in the mental health profession and we have to receive mandatory training every two years on HIV/AIDS. Despite my knowledge, my desire to have external validation from men now put me in this position.
To make matters worse, I just relocated to the area to complete my degree. My dreams have finally come true but now I have to deal with this. I have told very few people and feel alone. I tried a support group while I was living in NJ but I just didn't feel that I could relate to these folks. They were great guys but all with long term battles with this and none of them were working professionals. Not to devalue them based on this, not at all. I don't wantto receive posts telling me what a snob I am because I am really not.
I would like to find professionals who have this disease as well, folks who like me, knew better, yet did what they did and have it now. Just feeling like I am the only fool out there. I walk around the office wondering, if only they knew they would think less of me. Please, anyone out there in my shoes?