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Ok - Now what happens
      11/08/05 10:57 PM

So I have moved through all the stages without drinking or killing myself. Guilt, Sadness, Anger, Remorse and now Acceptance. I am sure I moved through others, but I just dont care about those ones.. Me and My Husband are pos. We are seeing a super excellant HIV specialist who has been super and supportive and will actually tell us whats next. Meds down the road he says. Ok, Ive excepted this. "You will be fine" I hope for this. Now its a waiting game of being in the "gray area". This should be a new medical term. Where am I? Oh, well, I am in the gray area. Where are you? So my head starts thinking and whirling about. Thank God im using a bit of Paxil to help me quit "Roominating" Oh yes I roominate. I am told I think to much and should really stop that. My husband tells me to stop that all the time "mushbrain". Need a baseball bat would be my remede. My cards are always out on the table and I have confided my bosses at work, supportive loving and caring. I have confided in all my family, supportive loving and caring. I have confided in my closeest friends, supportive loving and caring. Gosh things are great. Oh but no... Eric you will be subject to meds sometime in the future. Great - will my body be reseptive of these?? Eric - The doctor remember gave you this Merc free test which actually will hellp him decide which meds will work the best on you UP FRONT. Wow, well thats great. How long will one drug last? Then I here when they switch you it gets ruffer? Any truth to this? I dont know. I am just running amuck on this. Suppose I could just ask my doc who will tell me the truth cause I trust him with our lives. I do trust him. But I dont really want to right now. I am 41 and my husband is 45. Is there enough switches out there to keep us going for the rest of our natural lives? Or are my chances higher getting hit by a train. Wait, there are no trains in this valley... Hope they last and work for both of us.. A bit worried about this phase which will last for the remainder of our lives. Or, heck, they find a cure soon and we get a shot and say your cured. Will I beleive that?? No, it probably wont work on me. I wish I could just enjoy the day RIGHT NOW and not think of the bridge I and William have not crossed yet. But I do. I do .I do.. I only want the best for both of us. . By gosh Im ruminating again.. bye for now.. I need my Paxil.. lol

I really just need to hug him, love him and thank God for today.. Gosh I feel better now.. But it wont last long..

Eric

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* Ok - Now what happens Survivor 11/08/05 10:57 PM
. * Re: Ok - Now what happens ScotCharles   11/10/05 12:44 PM
. * So I want to be the FIGHTER Survivor   11/10/05 02:18 PM
. * Re: So I want to be the FIGHTER jenn   11/16/05 09:18 PM
. * 90-95 Survivor   11/16/05 09:51 PM
. * Re: So I want to be the FIGHTER soimnotalone   11/10/05 09:10 PM
. * Re: So we ALL are Fighters Survivor   11/13/05 12:59 PM
. * Re: So we ALL are Fighters debtex   11/13/05 01:24 PM
. * Surviving the Fight Survivor   11/13/05 02:16 PM
. * Re: Surviving the Fight debtex   11/13/05 02:46 PM
. * Re: So I want to be the FIGHTER ScotCharles   11/10/05 05:11 PM
. * Re: So I want to be the FIGHTER Survivor   11/10/05 05:39 PM
. * Re: So I want to be the FIGHTER ItsFaith   11/10/05 07:26 PM
. * So I rely upon Friends and God Survivor   11/11/05 05:01 PM
. * Re: So I want to be the FIGHTER ScotCharles   11/11/05 10:35 AM
. * Re: Ok - Now what happens jenn   11/09/05 09:42 PM
. * Re: Ok - Now what happens Survivor   11/09/05 09:47 PM
. * Re: Ok - Now what happens jenn   11/09/05 09:52 PM
. * Re: Ok - Now what happens ny10001   11/09/05 08:21 AM

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