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      11/12/05 11:47 PM

Hi all. I am really freaking out right now with no one to talk to and I can't bottle this inside anymore. So I don't know if I am asking for advice or just venting. I had a real possible HIV exposure and I am scared for my life now because I am getting FREAKY SYMPTOMS. Six weeks ago I met a guy through the Internet and had unprotected receptive anal sex. I'm 19 y/o male, wanted to explore bisexuality. I know this was STUPID. I have dwelled on this mistake for too long, but since life only moves forward, I am more concerned about my possible exposure to HIV.

After the encounter I felt guilty and promised myself I would be celibate for a long time. Everything was OK for the first three weeks or so, then I got a mysterious sore in my mouth. The student health clinic said it was an aphthous ulcer. It went away after a week or so.

Another week or so later I got a case of pinkeye, and was prescribed antibiotics and it went away.

Throughout this time I've had a low grade fever, for two weeks or so. I forget when it started. Occasional mild night sweats. A few days ago I developed a coated tongue, not sure if it's oral thrush or oral hairy leukoplakia. It doesn't come off. TONIGHT I saw a white spot on my throat!!! And my throat is sore. I started crying almost.

I haven't tested for HIV yet. I'm scared to go to the doctor. I am scared that I have ruined my life. At first I was 100% convinced I was positive. After reading lots of Dr. Bob's posts to others, I starting thinking that maybe there is some hope that I am negative. I just don't know what to do anymore. Someone please tell me something comforting.... I need it. This mistake is my biggest regret of my life and I am scared for my life now. I need someone to talk to.


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* Scared!!! Anonymous 11/12/05 11:47 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! Anonymous   01/24/06 01:48 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! Anonymous   12/30/05 11:04 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! ExWorryWart   01/04/06 05:25 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! Anonymous   11/17/05 11:05 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! BUT DARNIT IM MOVING AHEAD Survivor   11/13/05 08:19 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! BUT DARNIT IM MOVING AHEAD Worrisome Dave   11/13/05 09:45 PM
. * POSITIVE ATTITUDE.. Survivor   11/13/05 10:27 PM
. * Re: POSITIVE ATTITUDE.. Anonymous   11/14/05 10:45 AM
. * Skip to the last chapter Dave Survivor   11/14/05 08:29 PM
. * BIG HUGE SMILE Debtex@work   11/14/05 12:35 PM
. * Re: BIG HUGE SMILE Anonymous   11/14/05 10:44 PM
. * Re: BIG HUGE SMILE ItsFaith   11/16/05 01:54 PM
. * Life goes on.. Survivor   11/15/05 12:37 AM
. * Re: Scared!!! Survivor   11/13/05 03:39 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! debtex   11/13/05 03:05 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! Anonymous   11/13/05 06:18 PM
. * Re: Scared!!! debtex   11/13/05 07:41 PM

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