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Well first im a 19 year old girl whos had like 9 partners and then got test and the test was negative and that was about 2 years ago

since then i had sex with 3 guys.
first one was in a relationship and the one im kind of worried about was one i didnt really know him but he only penatrated 3 times and we did not contunie.(we used no condom i know im dumb) thats the one im really worried about cause i really know him.thats been about a year and a half is it possiable i have hiv. i've posted other places they say 3 penatractions really isent at a high risk...... pleae help me im so worried sick........... and the 3rd guy i have been with for a year now and hes always used protection with other women we did in the beginning of our realationship but we dont know we are in love and are getting married. i tell him about my fear of hiv he tells me i dont have it and not to worry about it. I have GAD (generized anxiety disorder and im ocd too(always washing my hands my hands are so dry now because of it. im scared to get tested please help me im in fear and i cant do this anymore

.what are the symptoms of aids????
lets say someone doesnt know they have hiv and it developes into aids what would they feel or would they even feel it at all. aids i would think u would get really sick and suff> but i honestly dont know please help me.............
am i crazy or do i have something to worry about. i feel so sad and depressed all the time i stay in my pgs all day shower at about 12:am and get into pgs and get on the computer until 3-4am and go to bed get up at around 12 afternoon or 1 ......... i rather sleep then be awake cause my mind then wounders

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