Very uneasy position I have been placed in....
09/01/10 04:05 PM
I have been placed into a very hard position. I am HIV+ (on meds and now undetectable). My partner of two years has AIDS and has refused any form of treatment. I knew this getting into the relationship and we continued to fall in love. I'm head over heals for him and have a future plan for us but he does not share this. He claims to have two years at most before the disease takes his life. He has already expressed is final wishes with me and trusts that I will follow his wants of no medical intervention.
Being together this long with hopes of a future with him has placed me in a very uneasy position. I love him with all my heart but how can I now sit here and do nothing while he allows himself to give up and make me watch. I don't want to leave him or lose him. I now feel our time together is unknown and I wonder each day when I will wake up and he will have passed. Or when he is suffering I don't know if I can just watch it all unfold without seeking assistance.
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