It has been two weeks since we sat in the Nephrologists office to get the results to my husbands kidney tests and were told that he is HIV positive! Silly me! I knew our marriage wasn't the greatest but with 24 years of marriage and two kids, I figured that the grass was not always greener on the other side of the fence so.................
Now, I find out he has been gay for about 15 years, he is HIV positive. Has had many one night stands, three longer relationships. His "other" relationships were also deceived, they didn't know he was married with kids or even where he works!
He swears he loves me and wants to stay together. I am just so scared, numb, confused, hurt, alone!
We are not telling anyone. We have lied to EVERYONE! It is so difficult to keep up the facade. I just need somewhere to vent, talk, listen, and learn!
I have sooooo many questions!
Why does the healthcare system seem to be moving so very slowly?
Does every day of not being on meds make him more likely to get sicker?
Sorry for the long post! I feel like I continue on for pages and pages...............................