Betrayed, hurt and why again? - TheBody.com's Bulletin Boards

A while ago I posted about my Fg and his partner P. Well I have to say that right now I feel hurt and betrayed and so so angry at P. He had us all believeing that his HIV status had changed and he had developed full blown AIDS. He was lying to us. He also split up with my doting Fg, because he wanted the freedom to screw around and he said that Fg not allowing that was Fg being possessive. The fact is if Fg is in a relationship he is only with that man and no one else. Him expecting the same in return is nothing unusual. P on the other hand doesn't seem to register that.

I'm angry and upset. P devestated Fg completely. He betrayed my trust, I actually thought that they were going to be together forever. I supported Fg's decision to be with him and accepted P into my heart willingly... for him to then turn round and slag me off and treat my best friend like crap.

I've also found out that they weren't always safe. Fg is refusing to get tested... I can't make him, I've tried to advise him to but he's not listening. I don't know what to do. I want to kill P for the things he's done (I'm not going into everything on here). Especially for putting Fg's life at risk... even though I know Fg should have been more sensible.

The why again in the title to this post refers to the fact that I have also found out that a friend of mine who I shall refer to as B is HIV+. I don't know when he was diagnosed, and I guess as my circle of friends expands and heads in the direction it is headed in I am bound to come across more people with HIV, but it kills to know that he is also HIV+. It kills because this man is lovely, he's caring, he's got so much joy for life. He doesn't know that I've found out. It's not my place to bring it up... if he wants to tell me it's up to him, but the person who told me wouldn't lie about it. I feel lost at sea at the moment over it all.

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