I'm just a 20 year old guy, who was just diagnosed with hiv about two weeks ago, and I am also in the military reserves. At the beginning I was fine with it, I didnt feel like my life was going to change at all, but now the more I know that I have it, im starting to get scare about everything. What do I do, Im going to school, and I dont feel like going to class, but if I drop out what would i do then, my financial aid will have to be paid back, which i dont have the money for it, I dont wanna get kicked out of the army because I wanted to make a career or something out of it, I've only been in it for 3 years and still got 5 to go for my contract to end, which I was hoping to re-enlist.
Evrything is going through my head right now, I cant concentrate on what im doing and I cant figure out why. I dont even know who I got the diseased from, because everyone I had sex with were "completely sane" or so they say.....
I did read about the HoustoN, TX research, and I am really looking forward to that and thats one of the things that keeps me going, but not everything else that kept me going when I found out I had the disease, like studying harder, get where I wanted to be and living a healthy life, I dont what to do, but I do know that I want to live a normal life and be able to stay in the military as long as I can, but I dont want it to end now