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This is the first time I have participated in any type of forum about HIV. I've been pretty secretive about it, only telling a few select friends that I knew I could trust and I've only told one family member. I found out about a year ago now and I accepted it pretty quick. It is what it is and I believe that fate is inexorable. I've been on Atripla now for the past 4 or so months and have been doing very well with no side-effects other than some weird/freaky dreams lately. I work out often and lead a healthy and active lifestyle. It's almost as if nothing has really changed in my life... Except my love life that is.

I'm a hetero white male in my mid-twenties and where I live, it's pretty damn difficult to tell a girl about my status and have her be ok with it. That is the hardest part about this whole deal. I was dating a very nice and beautiful girl when I found out about my condition and when I opened up to her about it, she decided it was more than she could handle. That was a year ago and I haven't dated since then. Now I just started seeing someone and she seems to really be in to me... But I haven't told her yet. In my mind, I am certain that she will not accept it; I don't know what to do. We've seen eachother 3 times now, and I always feel great at the start but towards the end of our date, I just start to feel like crap. I'm not being honest to her and that isn't right. I don't want to let her get attached to me and then come out with this news... I'd feel like a complete ass, but at the same time I'm afraid. Very afraid. I just don't know what to do. If I told her and she didn't accept it, then I'd be hurt but I would get over it. I feel like this is like the lottery, you just keep playing until you eventually win.

I need some advice here....

Thanks.

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