Re: I've had EVERY symptom related to HIV so depre
01/12/06 03:07 PM
The worry sucks man. I feel like I would rather not know sometimes. Knowing I have HIV would be terrible. All my life I have heard about it and learned about it in health class and school. I know its a chronic illness that could end up killing me. I never ever in a million years would have guessed that I could have it. I always thought no way in hell. no I am scared I have it and I am almost convinced I have it. So i tell myself I have it and I should just go get tested so i can start HAART. but I have just this tiny little morsel of hope left. Is so little that i cant even find it sometimes. that tiny little thread is the only thing keeping me from testing. my mind set is that as long as i have not tested positive then i don't deff have it yet. out of sight out of mind. hopefully i can scrounge of some courage and go get tested soon. Anyway I wrote too much but hopefully we are both - along with every1 else who is scared.
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