So I just broke up with my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years. We both found out that we were poz together and we were trying to work through it. I gave it to him so it was hard for me because I was dealing with the guilt of hurting him and the disease and financial issues and I was not the happiest person to be around.
He told me that he hasn't been feeling affectionate towards me for a couple weeks and I also found out he was seeing someone else. I still love him and I want to make it work. BUT i know I can't have a relationship with someone who doesn't want to put as much effort into it as I do. So I'm stuck because I am not trying to win him back, but I can't eat and all I do is sleep and I know that this is not helping me to be as healthy as I can be. I am just so sad about it.
I felt like he was THE guy you know. And he wants to be friends, but I can't be friends with him I still love him more than a good buddy.
So now I've lost a boyfriend and I've lost a friend, and now I'm dealing with this illness virtually alone.
I just want to crawl under my bed and disappear. And I know people say I will get over it eventually but what do i do in the meantime when the hurt is excrutiating
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