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Well, I don't know exactly where to put this... I was recently diagnosed about 6 or 7 weeks ago. I've been doing alot better mentally, but still have those random break downs. I'm a 27yo single father of an awesome little girl! She's the only thing that keeps me going. I found out I'm pretty good at fooling myself into thinking everything's going to be ok. I guess I just didn't want to feel like my life is over. I know it's not, but it's been hard. I've been2the ID doctor and got my 1st and 2nd labs back. Btw, he started me on Atripla so you can guess the results of the 1st lab. 1st lab: CD4= 74 VL= > 800,000 I wasn't expecting it to be that bad and which explains why I had this MRSA Staph infection on my legs and face which would not go away. It would get better for a month or two and then it would show up somewhere else. Ok, 2nd lab after starting Atripla: CD4 = 335 VL = 694. Good improvement, but not good enough for me. I know it's going to take some time to get things where they should be, I'm just not a person that likes to wait. So as long as I see upward trends I'll be happy I guess. It was very hard to go from being me to taking all this in and adjusting to all the meds I've been put on. I've only told my family and real friends that I'm close to. I've also did one of the hardest thing I think I've done in my life and myxgirlfriend of 5+ years. She came back positive also, which sucked. Well, it was obvious that I've had this for awhile since my lab was horrible. I don't know where I'm going with this. We've become close again and support each other, but I moved to a different city when we broke up, so all I hear is her voice. I know poor me right? I guess things could be alot worse and someone could be putnmy name on that AIDS memorial... I dunno things get better and they get worse, that's life I know. Wow, can't believe I'm going to post this. Never thought I'd be on this website. Have a good one and hope every is well.

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