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A Mother With HIV

I'm a mother of 6. I found out I was HIV infected about 9 years
ago. It was hard for me at first, but this is my story. When I
first found out about this disease(On Valentinres Day,1989) I was
devistated! I went home from the Drs. and wanted to kill my
husband. After all, he was the one that i blamed. He was
physically and mentally abusive and after listening to him tell
me I was fat(411lbs.) for 4 years I decided to do something about
it. I went and had my stomach stapled to lose weight. Not long
after, I developed an incisional hernynia which needed to be
taken out.Well, during one of these operations, I contracted HIV.
I was rady to kill him. After I calmed down enough to think
straight, I thought of my 6 kids. What is going to happen to
them? Where will they go when I die? I started making plans for
them. I called my family & friends and had made arrangements for
the kids to live with them. Then I set out to do all I could for
them. Big b-days & Xmases, things like that.Talk about getting
spoiled!! It was after about 2 years I decided, I'm not going to
think like this anymore! I'm not going to sit back and die! I
wanna live! Well, things started changing then and so did I. I
kept my health up, taking my meds. and just being thankful I have
today to live for. My oldest 2 children found out from my
husband,(IN one of his drunken stupers) that I was HIVt, this
killed me! I did not want them to know. Ater all kids wouldn't
understand. well, they did, and now I'm glad they know because
they are my best friends and it is someone I can talk to about
this. It has been ten years now and here I am!!! I've left my
husband, and am doing great! My body is doing fine and mentally I
feel better. This is just a story to try to inspire all you out
there that think there is no chance.....JUST HANG IN THERE!!!!!!
I am living proof that there is!

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