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mixed_emotions
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tested positive 2 days ago
      #239962 - 06/15/08 06:33 PM

Hi everyone
I tested positive 2 days ago, and it really came out of the blue, I had no reason whatsoever to suspect HIV. Been with a stable partner for over 2 1/2 y now, had multiple partners before but always insisted on using condoms for anal sex (from what I used to think chances of transmitting by oral sex are minimal), educated all my friends to be responsible and use condoms. Neither myself or my partner have had "extramarital" affairs in the past 2 1/2 years, and I tested negative 2 y ago, and he tested negative 6 m ago. I always tried to live responsibly and by the books, and yet....
I just don't know what to think, and how could I have possibly gotten infected. I spoke to my partner immediately, and we're both re-testing, hoping he will remain negative, and having a crazy hope that my results were somehow incorrect. Trying to rationalize, trying to imagine what my life would be like, how long would it actually last, going from panic attacks, through desperation, sadness, fear I might had infected my partner, to hope and telling myself we can get through this.....it's just so surreal that I still haven't come up with a strategy to cope with it. I know I'm not going to lay down and die, I already made my appt with a recommended HIV specialist and will probably be looking for support groups soon. I just cant still get over the fact that I went from planning my career to planning my survival in less than a day. Can I do this, will he continue to love me and stick with me, can I survive this financially, is he going to be OK....just too many questions going through my mind. I always say that there is something good to come out of every evil, but this one, but this one it's beyond my imagination.

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Florida69
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Re: tested positive 2 days ago new
      #239963 - 06/15/08 09:21 PM

The very most important thing to do is to breath. I am so sorry to hear about your recent diagnosis. I was there 2 years ago, and I went through the very same emotions, not knowing where to go and how it could happened to you. There is a risk of catching HIV by giving fellatio. I am glad that you are getting retested. I did the same thing, getting a confirmation test is not ever a bad idea. Your life will go on, regardless whether your confirmation test is negative or positive. You will get through this. Don't stop planning your career, because your life is not over. Keep the positive attitude, we are here if you want to talk or there is anything else we can do. Take care, D

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ravi
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Re: tested positive 2 days ago new
      #239964 - 06/15/08 10:03 PM

Hi there,

First off all, i would advice you to get a confirmatory HIV test done. The sexual and testing history you report, some how makes me doubt these positive results. It might be a 'false positive'. Any which way, the docotrs would have called you back for a confirmatory test, so go ahead, do it and let us see how it shapes up!

Good luck



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Love Ravi

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AZSouthBay
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Re: tested positive 2 days ago new
      #239967 - 06/16/08 03:11 AM

You sound JUST LIKE ME! I tested positive on April Fools Day 2008 after testing negative approx 1 year prior. I'm still going through it-- panic attacks, crying spells from out of nowhere, probably the most severe depression I HAVE EVER HAD TO ENDURE IN MY LIFE. For the 1st 2 months, and actually even now I can't fight the feeling that nothing is real its a dream. Everybody tries to make me feel better by saying "its not a death sentence anymore"-- this doesn't help me and I still consider this the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I guess there are alot of worse things that could happen, but now I've become just another statistic.
My husband of 14 years just tested negative, and i am relieved. I don't have any advice because I haven't learned yet how to cope and I am still to a certain degree in denial- this wasn't supposed to happen to me, or us, RIGHT? Just wanted to let you know that you are not alone and I am here for you to talk to anytime.

AZSouthBay

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mixed_emotions
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Re: tested positive 2 days ago new
      #239971 - 06/16/08 11:11 AM

Thank you so much, to everyone for showing their support. You have already helped, and everyone else that shared their story. It's encouraging, and there has to be hope. I made a list today, of things I have to look forward to: my graduation, my brother's wedding, my b/f getting a promotion he worked for so hard, my best friend and I going to see a play next month.....there are so many good things in life. And hopefully, I will add more and more things to this list as we go, and it will be an encouragement in the days to come. I pray that my loved ones are all going to be all right.
Thank you, thank you again, to all of you!

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vaccineman
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Re: tested positive 2 days ago new
      #239985 - 06/17/08 05:28 AM

What exactly made you go for the test? Symptoms? Also have in mind that giving oral sex has a low risk of infection..but the possibility is still there and real...

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mixed_emotions
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Re: tested positive 2 days ago new
      #243389 - 11/28/08 03:49 PM

Well, almost 6 months later things are looking up. Both my partner and I stated taking medications, and both our viral loads have dropped sharply, while CD4 count started steadily increasing.
I cannot help but be thankful being diagnosed in this age and this country where we do have treatments available, and lead a normal life.This trial has definitely strengthened our relationship, and I am so thankful to have my partner by my side. I love him more than ever. I've continued my job and graduate studies w/o interruption. It has not been easy trying to keep it together, but it get easier. My advice:
Take some time to cry. Keep busy. Don't make any rush decisions. Count your blessings often. And repeat: "Life is good!".


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