broken condom - 30 seconds - broken lives - TheBody.com's Bulletin Boards

Eric - I feel the need to thank you and everyone who replied to me as my status is not confirmed positive as yet. For you and other folks here, who are confirmed game, set and match, it must sound as if I am trying to pull something out of the thin air like an imaginary friend. I indeed am lucky to have posted negative results when last tested at 12 weeks exact. However, I am not in a situation to know my current status due to some situational and geographical constraints. In such situations, the only thing one can trust is thir hearts and minds and that's how I am drawing conclusions. If it is just a matter of a report which read positive to enable me posting here, that will really not be fair to me as it would deny me of the guidance and folks from the other side of the line when I needed it the most. I do not want to be a headache for anyone - Brother: I know you going to be here. I will catch up with you and upddate you when I can manage to get tested again...

The world is a hoax. People are not dependable. How can we depend on medical science (so called logic) blindfoldedly when the logic has been formulated by not so dependable people. People lie to others that they are not infected when they are. Humans, aren't we a disgraced lot. We talk about being a man, we talk about holding substance. It's all bullshit. Nothing in this world has substance. Everything is fluid from individual thought to water to hiv tests and window period. Nothing is for real. Reality is death and may be the matrix.

This is grave injustice to me. I was good looking, smart, successful and healthy. I am nothing now after 8 months. I din't do no one wrong knowingly or if I did was to save someone else in a more vulnerable position from nervous breakdown. I think someone used a voodoo doll on me. What I am rambling is no sense to so called logical human kind but the who decides that someone is logical or illogical. People even called Einstein mad!!!

I am a week ass ZERO. That's what a 30 second exosure has made a lean mean sex machine(as self percieved earlier). Games _ I loved but never realized I will be played this big time.

Crazy - "yes" I am, I tried to replicate how much damage and virus transfer can take place in 30 seconds of exposure after condom breakage yesterday and it seemed a whole lot. Today, I am planning on buying sponge, pouring honey on it and grinding my penis on it to get a visible impression and judge if enough honey can get into my urethra [also I am uncircumcized] to cause transmission.

But, please do not let the crazy a/c of myself stereotype me as a lame ass worrier. I do not want to prove anything but whatever be it, I will share my results with you with complete honesty and the deal I have made stays.

Eleniel ---- You look kinda cute. I really do not like it when cute girls call me fucked up unless and until they have a fetish for fucked up asses like me;). Don't take this one too seriously[meant only for establishing nice ties - icebreaker]. Thanks for trying to encourage me though in a not so elegant way though about by test results. I appericiate your & Eric's courage coz you are better off than me even though I am still not confirmed..

take care folks....

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