Concerned for the future - TheBody.com's Bulletin Boards

I really dont know how to start this but, let me say that my
lover and I have known of his HIV status for a little over a
year. When we first found out, I was scared to death of course. I
went in immediately and got tested and my result turned out
negative. I was tested again just a few months ago and I am still
negative. My main concern as soon as we learned of his HIV was to
get him started on some kind of treatment. I had heard of the
Protease inhibitors and all the drug cocktails and was (and still
am) convinced that he wasnt going to die from AIDS. The thought
of him dying is not an option to me. We have been together for 13
years and I cannot even imagine living without him. He has been
on the drugs since the first of the year and he reacted very good
to the mixture of drugs that they started him on. He said that
they start out weak so as not to allow the virus to develop an
immunity too soon and get stronger. Now, his last appointment
that he had showed his viral load back up and his CD4 count back
down. He says this is normal and that the doctors may have to up
the strength of the drug mixture. The reality of it is beginning
to hit me and I am realizing that there is no cure for AIDS and
that all the drugs are doing is allowing him to live longer while
at the same time allowing the disease to get stronger in his
body. I realize that this is a necessary evil but I am concerned
for the future.

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