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#105862 - 08/03/04 02:49 AM
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I recently was infected over the 4th weekend. I had 2 one night stands - both girls pursued me and I had unprotected sex. I just know the 1st girl was the one who murdered me (well murder/suicide is the more accurate depiction). She looked sick in retrospect, had vaginal fluids as wet as the ocean, and we had sex for hours - she also made comments which made me believe she knew she had something the next morning which haunt me like a nightmare.
I took viagra since we had been at a club most of the night drinking - ironic if the viagra caused me to be exposed long enough to the vaginal fluids to infect me. The thing is I didn't even like her and turned her down and she asked again to come to my room! I'm just a man and find it awkward to turn down a woman asking me for sex. Ugh! The mistake of the century! In my reckless abandon I used the "pull-out" method.
4 days later I had maculo-papulor rash in the genitial area, sore throat, dry cough, fatugue, and high fever. A couple of weeks later the sore throat came back with transient rash. No mistaking these cursed symptoms - acute HIV syndrome. Healthy, handsome, and vibrant one moment - dead man walking the next!
Of course I'm in shock, angry at her for not insisting I wear a condom and angry at myself for not protecting myself - 32 years old making tons of money and looking to settle down and raise a family. Now I can't have children and am HIV positive! I'm fucked. I wish I could meet a woman around my age and infection time who could accept me and build a life together. I feel so guilty even of thinking of marrying someone who is not positive. What a lonely feeling.
Life just got a whole hell of a lot more complicated!
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Your story seems a little like mine. I had sex with a "Karaoke girl" in china at the end of June. I used a condom. On the way back on the plane I noticed a bit of jock itch, and tried to get rid of it with creams. I then started to feel flu-ey and for a bout 10 days now I have been awake every night for 5-6 hours. Not sleeping at all. Yesterday I took therapid test and passed. I know this only detects the virus, and I am way inside the window. Trouble is I am too scared to take the blood test. I'll use that word again, scared nay terrified. I spend all night panicking about my life just crumbling away.....I can't stand the worry.
Anyway, the woman at the test centre said that in my circumstances, and using a condom, I have little chance of catching anything. I think its just the worry, and the anxiety that is making me feel sick. Could I have caught the jock itch from th condom ? It was a chinese brand I used ?
Actually I feel better just having wrote that......
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Have you still got jock itch?
i went to asia, and came back with jock itch,wont respond to treatment with creams, still got it a year later and still testing negative.
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Hi, Yes I have. I seem to have hijacked this guys discusssion but jusy hearing that the same thing happend to you makes me feel better. I think I'll see the doc about geting some prescription strength cream.
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I know this is the most difficult thing that you have faced in your life. However, you need to learn to redefine yourself and carry on. I was infected at 29 years old and have been positive for two years. I work a full-time job and have developed a new relationship with someone who is negative. Don't give up on your goals.
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I read your post and sounds like u know you have hiv but did u get tested?? U never mentioned it but thought i would ask
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can you decsribe your jock itch, to see if its the same as mine.
im considering getting circumcised beacuase it doesnt go away for nearly a year now since comign back from HK.
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ok u have been tested for hiv have u been tested for std? maybe u just got some kind of the clap or it could be herpes have ya;ll been tested for that to?
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