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hey fellow dirties, yes, as jackie said, i have accepted my NEG and really don't worry over it too much anymore. i never thought the 3 months would be over and now i'm almost at the 6 month mark. my last test was a neg at about 20-22 weeks and it was a 3rd gen. 1/2 test, for those that take that into consideration like myself. ongoing symptoms? yeah, i got em, not even worth talking about because i firmly beLIEve (hehe) that they are not HIV-related at this point.

extremely, i am happy for you that you are willing to accept your results, i know you pretty much knew it from your previous test, but the 22 week results will seal the deal. they pretty much did for me. i'm not sure if i will test again at or after 6 months, probably will, but not sure. with my bad luck, although i feel a lot luckier these days, i would get a false positive and go off the deep end. we'll see.

unlucky, you're not that unlucky, man. come on, you need a good slap in the face (with love of course). like jackie said, like you have heard and read a thousand times, you don't get it from kissing. regardless of whatever STD's might be present or whatever theory you might conjure up in your head. think about all of the kissing that goes on worldwide everyday, especially friday and saturday nights and first-time hook-ups and people in Africa, China, Russia, England, where-ever, with or without STD's, which would be a lot more prevalant in third world countries, and only one documented case of transmission by kissing which has sketchy details about previous protection and involved major oral surgery and profuse bleeding (yuck). all of this kissing going on, bad oral hygiene, drug-users, gays, whatever the scenario, even with herpes, chlamydia, gonnerhea, thrush or any other combination of STD's in the mouth, it hasn't, doesn't, won't happen anytime soon. do you get my point? get ahold of yourself. please. stop dragging this thing out longer than it has to be. how is it helping you in any way? i freaked out on my wife's symptoms too, but now, in retrospect, just like my "symptoms" they have other causes and mostly due to the fact that you are paying so much attention to them. a couple of years ago, you probably wouldn't even have half listened to your wife when she was complaining of this or that with her body. i'll bet you are asking her questions about them all the time? i did. luckily, my wife is nowhere close to being a hypochondriac, so she didn't feed off of my little game. what if your wife is feeding off of your concerns about her health, i could see that happening. you are making her pay attention to all the little things we most often ignore. and what jackie said is true about your relationship, it is sufferring i'm sure, like she said, stress is stress and it will show up. it is easy to get all inside your head and let these things control you, but you have to change it. you have to convince yourself, you can do it. you're not some medical mystery. maybe you did get some virus, there's only hundreds of them, so what? your body fought it off and won! have you seen a counselor before? you really should. i strongly feel that some type of anti-depressant/anxiety/OCD drug would probably help, like zoloft, if you don't already take something like that. it really helped me a lot. helped me not to obsess about it so much. you wouldn't have to take it the rest of your life, just long enough to help you heal your brain, because that is where your problem is, IMO. heal your brain, and your body and your wife's will follow. i used to look in the mirror and see death, now i see health and i feel that way for the most part. people have weird ailments and funky [censored] going on with their bodies all the time, often that a doctor can't even diagnose or find a true cause, definitely more often than not, it has nothing to do with HIV. symptoms are treated and eventually clear up on their own. sorry to be so long-winded, but i just want to get through to you if i can because i hate to see you do this to yourself and your family, plus the fact that i don't know when to shut up. WAKE UP! give it a rest and think about something else. search this forum and look back at posts from kitg and paulb i think his name was. they had many many symptoms and were convinced and they finally came to grips with the fact that the results showed the same thing since the first test........NEG. and it will eventually happen to you too, it is your choice how long it takes for it to happen. you have nothing to loose if you drop it at this point except happiness and time. and you really never know how much time you have left, don't spend it worrying about this. take care unlucky, and everyone else. unlucky, one more thing, you do know that people not infected have actually had unprotected sexual intercourse, even anal, many many times with a person infected and still have come out negative in the end? those people are really lucky, and you are not that unlucky!

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