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plokoon81
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this is killing me
      #277062 - 07/10/14 11:55 AM

Sorry guys and girls

I just dont have any one else to speak to. I know I know i used a condom I know.

but this waiting for the result of my 3 month test is killing me. I want to scream and cry and i am losing my mind.

on my way to work ridding my motorbike this morning i kind of broke down and started crying. it was the only place no one could se me cry. away from my wife and away from friends.

I need to keep telling me self

I used a condom
i had 4th gen test duo negative at 4 weeks
i had 4th gen test duo negative at 7 weeks

please please dont change.

I feel so run down. weak and everything hurts.

i am afraid ... I will lose my wife and son and job if this turns out bad for me

sorry for posting this up



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Marian
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277063 - 07/10/14 12:56 PM

It's okay. That's why this forum exists. To help people. It is normal what you're going through, many people do too. I think nothing I can say will ease your mind but as I said before in many many countries the test you did is conclusive. Your 3 month test will be negative, I'm sure!

Edited by Marian (07/10/14 12:57 PM)

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Marian
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277064 - 07/10/14 01:03 PM

In Brasil they have a lot of experience and they can't take risks and THE BEST experts say 30 days window. And confirm at 60 days! You're okay.
P24 and antibodies are inverse propotions so, one of them have to show up on your test.

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plokoon81
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277066 - 07/10/14 03:51 PM

Thanks marian. I really appreciate your comments, i just hope you are right and this is all in my head. I heard the numbers and how is harder to pass from woman to men vaginal penetration. And i used a condom which i dont know if it was a good condom. She provided the condom in her hotel room. Is just the what if she was + and she did temper with the condom etc is driving me nuts mate. What if it was shep skin condom ? What if what if

I feel like im not in the driving sit. Like this is a nightmare i cant wake up from and i cant do anything. About it .

Dont know much about your story marian hope you are feeling better now with your test

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Marian
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277068 - 07/10/14 06:12 PM

I know what you are feeling, I really do. But trust me, yes it is harder to pass from women to men and your risk was really low. Even without using a condom.. Its not like that. You are negative. Im sure. Fear won't let you see that.

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333
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277070 - 07/10/14 06:48 PM

Don't worry plokoon81, your test result will be negative. When will u get it? Plz share it with us when u get it.

Marian,
So in Brazil duo test is officially conclusive at 30 days?

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Re: this is killing me new
      #277073 - 07/10/14 07:41 PM

A rock and a hard pleace is really a tough place to be ... protected sex, testing neg ... have you told your wife what you did?

I would think the guilt is eating away at you. Once your all tested and 110% confirmed your neg ... will you tell your wife?

Guilt and anxiety has a tendency to wear down the mind and the body ... give that some thought!

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plokoon81
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277081 - 07/11/14 03:18 AM

If i am negative i will not tell my wife. It was a silly mistake that i dont plan to ever make again. I dont think i can afford to do this for another 3 months. Not worth it. If i am positive the yes i will come clean. I have avoided sex with my wife all this time i. Fear i could pass it on to her. She wants a second baby and if i am granted a second chance i want one to. I know i sound like a piece of shit. But i never do e this before and we been together for 12 years i wanted an adventure without string. So i though an escort would be the best thing. How wrong i was!!!

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Marian
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277082 - 07/11/14 04:39 AM

Yes they are, for a lot of experts. Some advice you to repeat at 60 days.
Plookoon, i am exactly in the same situation you are. Guilty and regret are our worst enemy!

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Jackson8811
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277084 - 07/11/14 05:08 AM

Had a very similar situation! you will be negative bro. The more stressed you are, the more runned down you will get.

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333
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277182 - 07/15/14 05:43 PM

Did u get ur result?

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plokoon81
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Re: this is killing me new
      #277200 - 07/16/14 04:51 AM

nothing yet and i called the system and they say the operate with a no news is good news. and it can take up to 2 to 3 weeks for them to send atext to let me know. I am worried now because i always get my results at the 14 day .. thats is today and still no text

both 4th gen test i taken at 4 weeks and 7 weeks i got my negative result on the 14th day.

I am freaking out now what if i got a positive and they have to re-test this is why they are taking longer

when will this freaking nightmare end!!!

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