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INFECTED II
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I know how you feel...Infected.
      #26570 - 01/08/02 07:53 AM

Dear Infected, I know exactly how you feel. EVERYTHING that you have described on your past postings...I shared the same thoughts/feelings..BELIEVE ME!..even right up to now. The rest and yourself might think I'm crazy and why the heck I'm thinking in such a way when I have not been tested yet...but I know I cant lie to myself. The symptoms are there. The swollen lymph nodes, burning tngue, diarrhea, night sweats...maybe the chest pain, 'anemia' are caused by my anxiety and my mind but sure hell not the swollen lymph nodes and sore throat.
It has been almost 3 months, and the f**king nodes are still there, swollen! I guess the reason that made me and possibly Infected hard to accept the fact is that we both put on protection but yet still catch the f**king disease. Its true that I could not see any defect on the condom at a glance, but those experienced chaps mentioned that if the condom is broken, it is very obvious. But 2 days after the exposure, I noticed that there was an abrasion right on my penis (between the head and the skin)..how it got there, beats the hell out of me...I guess the condom really has defect..but think again, my ejaculation was all over the shaft and if the condom has in fact broken, my ejaculation should have spilled out (by the way, this is my only experience having the ejaculated fluid on the shaft and not on the reservoir...again I'm puzzled).
Well, what I'm trying to say is that GOD indeed has a unique way of 'punising'us. But again GOD is being fair to us by giving us an opportunity to fight on...think again if we have no symptoms and suddenly POW! we got all the OIs. So, I guess GOD is throwing us a challenge and trully is up to us to figure on what is best for us.
You are lucky living in USA where it is consider quite liberal...here, one could lose everything...EVERY GOD DAMNN THING! And to make matter worse, the treatment is inconsistent and no HIV specialists...just norm Dr! You tell me...is this a challenge or what! So, Infected, as much as we want to bitch about the past, nothing we can do to change it. No one will be able to give us a second chance except us. Get up, get organized and plan your next step. I, personally believed that with the current med, we have a chance to live for at least another 15-20 years...maybe more if we do not have to start the med in the next couple of years. You know what.....I have chosen to get the same combination (sustive and combivir) as you if I get it. It seems that this combination has lesser side effect.
OK...I got to go now BUT remember, stay calm and think straight. We'll keep in touch.



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Re: I know how you feel...Infected. new
      #26583 - 01/08/02 10:36 AM

You still don't know until you get a test. THERE ARE MANY OTHER ILLNESSES THAT CAN CAUSE YOUR SYMPTOMS. SYMPTOMS CAN BE CLEAR INDICATORS, HOWEVER, YOU NEED A TEST.

German Giant Bearded Dragon



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